With thanks...

Thanks everyone for your comments 
on my post reflecting on

how things were a struggle with prayer 
and adjusting to my new life

with my beloved Mr. Husband.

I’ve felt much better in this area

since writing on this topic and posting it.
The post was being formed within me for
sometime and just getting it down
was like spearing it and that by so doing I
could get on with things...

I had been feeling like pellets of hard but soggy hail had

been constantly raining down on me,

slowly, silently, discouraging me on the topic.

Now I have not changed that much since posting it,

as it really will be a bit by bit, little by little,

but I don’t feel that horrid pelting all the time.

The book, Adian’s Song, also helped a lot.

Just seemed to communicate that normal people like me

(well not that I am normal :))

have a place in this world and in God’s plan.

I have felt really encouraged by this book and was sad

when I read the last pages

and really wished for a sequel to read!

The book is so hard to sum up;

it’s a narrative journal that is well written; 
blogging at it’s best but beyond it,

as it were, it was funny, at times profound, 
beautiful, yet approachable,

it just made those dreary days when you wake up 
and it is grey cloudy and heavy

seem not as heavy or dreary.

It’s a really special read and I found myself wishing
I had 20 copies of it to give to friends! :)

So while I had been missing Kathleen Norris,
I must say that God truly gave me

a book in Adian’s song that I needed
at this precise moment and that helped

me break through a lot of the discouragement
I was feeling that is due to the 
continual process of adjusting to my new life

and the ups and downs it brings.

I am remembering the monk who told me that

the house of the soul sometimes takes a few times to build without

it crumbing, but eventually I too will have this;

I read recently that the house of the soul is
built by Christ Himself for us,

His unworthy children…

It is becoming clear through my slow reading of Fr. John’s letters

that despair is to have no part in us

but hope in God’s mercy…