Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
It was so wonderful to be at
my favourite weather - sunny, cold, snow on the ground,
so good to see the sisters there.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tomorrow I am Lord willing
going to the Greek monastery for the day.
I can't think of a better way to
spend my birthday than this.
I've been sick with a bad chest cold
for a good while;
I really hope for the strength to go tomorrow.
I had a great evening and dinner with good friends
a lovely last night to being 34.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Monday, December 26, 2011
I had begun fasting on the new calendar
so I could celebrate with friends in Ottawa
since I am not able to be with my family.
We have a nice dinner together.
I got to hold my godson.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Noah woke up today
and was sitting up in bed,
his mother Kate related to us today via FB.
Thanking God for this mercy.
It is still a very hard situation...
I called my MI Aunt,
my Mom's oldest sister,
since I had missed calling her for her birthday
and today is/would of been/was my Oma's
So we are all thinking of my Oma a lot.
(I say this because she is still alive in heaven).
Friday, December 23, 2011
Noah is very gravely sick. He is a little better than he was earlier -
this afternoon both lungs were filling with fluid and he was not
responding to lasix - was barely peeing at all, in fact. A second dose
of lasix opened the floodgates and his lungs are much better, but
we've been cautioned that this not reason to get our hopes up too
much. This could go either way right now. He could recover or he could
have only a day or two - and anything in between. We've been
surrounded and blessed by the presence of people we love quietly
streaming in and out of the house to pray and just to sit. Perhaps the
greatest blessing of the day is that this afternoon Noah surprised us
all by waking up enough to open his present from Mommy and Daddy and
his present from his brother David. It took all he had, but he did it.
Thank you all for your continued prayers.
Noah is sicker. He has more edema (swelling) and now has fluid in his lungs. He's vomiting and appears to be in pain. He is doing a little "barking" with each breath because his vocal cords are apparently starting to swell. We've just now jumped his pain meds up quite a bit, and phenergan, ativan, and lasix are coming. (The first two are for the nausea and the lasix should help him pee off some of this fluid.) We can and will get oxygen delivered if needed. The hospice nurse is here now and Dr. B will be coming over at some point. Dr. B is trying hard (please pray) to find a way to get him blood and/or platelets here locally - if Noah needs to be transfused (and he will soon at this rate), we can't drag him an hour and a half to Greenville to do so. We have a fairly large regional hospital a few minutes away, but they've refused to transfuse Noah even when he was healthy - they say his "needs are too overwhelming." I can't stand the thought of losing him if blood could help him get over this crisis, so please pray that we can work this out. He really can't be woken or roused at this point - may open his eyes if he vomits or retches, and has nodded his head in response to questions a few times, but then is immediately back out. ANYONE local who wants to come sit in the living room and pray is MORE than welcome - just come right in - you don't need to call or knock.
Outside of the NAC (National Arts Centre)
... there is always music playing
by this piano man
(speakers above not pictured)...
Entering the beautiful part of Ottawa...
I live about a 15 to 20 minute walk from this...
My first real library job
was about a mile down the street from here...
and was part of my falling in love with Ottawa...
The Chateau Laurier.
Beautifully kept up and very good food
and high tea.
Also quite costly so only a place I visit to look
at their historical photographs;
years ago when I had a good job and did not take a vacation
I went there with a friend who came to visit me
for high tea.
It was really lovely.
One of the hallways there...
Picture taken from an enclosed crosswalk
looking towards the Parliament buildings,
the Chateau being in the right hand corner...
I had a library school friend visit
me this week;
it was really nice to see her again
and spend time with her.
We took various walks and had a nice lunch together yesterday.
The picture above is a bit of the cheer I saw on our last walk.
I went to the grocery store with her and
she noticed the really great sale on
these oranges and I bought some other things
plus these oranges
and she carried the oranges back for me.
They taste really great.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
URGENT - Noah is running a fever. On hold with hospice now. Lord Jesus, give him Christmas. - Kate Estes Mother of Noah's new status. Please pray!!!!
The doctors, labs and meds are all on their way to Noah.
Please pray for them.
Lord have mercy!!! Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy!
Most Holy Theotokos save and protect!
Lord Jesus being their comfort and shield!
The Theotokos, when she was three years old after the flesh, was led to the Lord; and Zacharias, the priest of God, received her in the temple with rejoicing and established her there.
My Oma was taken to heaven on the morning of the
feast of the entrance of the Theotokos into the Temple.
I had a ride to an old calendar church
after sitting outside my parent's door as I knew
that a phone call at 7 in the morning meant
that my Oma had died.
When I was in the car riding to church
I realized that my Oma had been taken
on this feast day of the
I told the priest about my Oma's death
before the service
and he commented about the Mother of God
taking my Oma home
and how he has seen icons of this feast
where it looks almost like the
at three years old
is skipping up the steps of the temple.
I found this incredibly comforting;
that the Mother of God had taken my Oma
on her feast day,
a day of entrances.
It must of been hard for St. Joachim and Anna to
let there child go.
But how wonderful that the Mother of God
came to the temple;
that she was prepared to bear Christ
the Saviour of the world.
I had never really noticed this feast in such a deep
way as the day my Oma died
and the Mother of God took her...
Today the living Temple of the holy glory of Christ our God,
she who alone among women is pure and blessed,
is offered in the temple of the Law,
that she may make her dwelling in the sanctuary.
Joachim and Anna rejoice with her in spirit,
and choirs of virgins sing to the Lord,
chanting psalms and honouring His Mother.
Some years back, when I was a couple months
from becoming at catachumen
I was at my Oma's for Christmas;
I think she turned 95 that year.
And late that night I remember thinking
very strongly of my Oma as a Mother
and the Mother of God.
Now I realize how much the Mother of God was present
in my life and especially during that time;
my Oma bore and raised 8 children;
Somehow I know that my Oma is close to
the Mother of God...
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Nativity in Glass from Romania
from Rebecca and Mark.
Small cloth under made by my Oma.
Mirror and kleenex holder were my Oma's.
I was given the Pascha egg
this past Pascha
by one of my favourite older women parishioner's sister...
Christmas and Pascha are deeply linked.
The small icon in the background is
which is there for Noah,
who is quite ill.
Many are holding their own small
vigils in prayer
as they go about the days before Christmas...
It is hard for us all to focus
on the coming of Christ.
So many things are thrown at us during fasts;
Christmas lent/Nativity Fast means
distractions on the party & presents level
and often more painful things,
illness, loss, grief.
But Christ came and was born on this earth
so that He could defeat death.
Christ is with us in the
times of joy and the times of great grief.
My Christmas Icons.
Nativity of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ,
Christ our Saviour with Angels,
St. Nicholas to provide and protect
St. Spyridon to help us
the Mother of God to console us.
May God give us strength for this day
and hearts that are open to thanksgiving
and worship of God
amidst all things.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
They can't do anything surgically - she just needs to stay off it as much as possible. She will be staying with me until she is better. She is very comfortable while sitting or lying down but not while on her feet.
Please pray for her.
But am also glad that it was not a worse accident.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Last night I baked my
a vegan chocolate cake
for St. Nicholas Day
while Cleo supervised.
After liturgy we had our St. Nicholas fish
dinner and concert;
it was also a parishioner's birthday so we sang
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
you are hearing the end of one's story.
My Oma surprised everyone
earlier this year
by going with at least 4 or 5 of her 8 children to Perry Sound;
I knew somehow she was her last acts of love
for her children.
She never stopped knitting.
She finished those 7 scarves and
gave them to my Mom to give to us.
After we said goodnight she told my Aunt
that she was going to finish up the slippers
she was knitting before going to bed.
a shade of purple with a lot of red in it,
yellow knit on top of them,
While they were waiting for the ambulance and she was
in bed, one of my Aunts called from the room
by my Oma's bed,
to my other Aunt (the oldest who is in her late 70's)
in Michigan to tell her
that Mom fell and would you like to talk to her
and so they did and my Oma told her oldest
daughter not to worry about her
that she would be fine
and that she should go to bed.
Mother to the end to her grown children,
that is my Oma.
The last conversation my MI Aunt, the oldest daughter,
ever had with her Mother.
when I was young and would eagerly wait
my Mom's return
to see what my Oma gave her for us.
Knitted slippers, socks, mittens, hats;
doilies, little booties for babies, tea cozies...
At home I still have a lovely edition of the book
beauty and the beast
that my Oma gave me and she used to send all of us
cards for our birthdays.
With 8 children,
at least 25 grandchildren and well-over 10 great grandchildren
not to mention some
this is a lot of people.
My Oma stopped some years back but when I was a child
I always got a card from her.
I have one from just a few years back
when my family went to Brampton for Christmas.
I have a lot more to write about my Oma
who grew up in Holland on a farm
and was faithful to her Lord,
our Saviour Jesus Christ.
She would ask me from time to time
to make sure I was still trusting in God for everything,
praying and reading my Bible.
I really appreciate each of you;
your words, love, encouragement and prayers
for my Oma, my family and myself
are a real blessing.
I seek to remain thankful,
for our God,
for each of you,
for my family and
for my Oma.