Flowers for the family for sympathy.
We were given flowers to put on the casket.
This was mine until one of my cousin's
little girls asked if she could trade with
me and so I did
and had a red tulip instead.
Very Dutch, tulips.
It will take a while for all this to sink in.
That I said goodbye to my Oma.
That my life will never be the same.
That I have gone from having my Oma
for almost 35 years
of my life
to the rest of my years on earth without her.
I am so glad I am Orthodox and know that
even now spiritually I am not disconnected from her
and that in Christ I am with her
and in church I will be as near to her and to heaven
as I can be.
I can't wait to have a panakhyda for her at my church
back in Ottawa.
I have prayed Akathists for her
and this has been very consoling.
Without this I don't know how one could really
have the comfort one needs in this time.
I miss my Oma.