roosje: {little rose}

Friday, May 22, 2026

this morning

I was blessed to wake up and have a text from a dear friend who felt I needed prayer especially when by a beautiful icon of St Luke the Surgeon.

I know I am overtired and could easily get sick again.

Asking prayers unworthy as I am.

Thursday, May 21, 2026

Ascension Day and feeling adrift

The tulip suddenly turned from pink to purple. They are fading away slowly.

I finished volume two of the unselected letters of Emma M. Lion. Before I was done I already ordered volume 3. It comes tomorrow. I'm finding them to be quite riveting and I can understand why people are waiting with such eagerness for volume 9.

I had lunch with a godson. I finally packed up my silver plate that I used for the dinner on Sunday. For one reason or another, it often takes me days to fully put everything back from an eight-person dinner. It was such a lovely event. I have such gracious friends.

I've had a strange sort of loss that is strange. I said that adjective already...... I don't really have a better one at the moment! However it's a loss in terms of a person perhaps leaving a place that in my mind anchored me. I feel strangely adrift.

I don't know about others but I can really take a place into my inner world. I guess you would say and it becomes one of the places that gives me a sense of home within the world or a sense of geography that locates myself. When something within that suddenly changes, it's very disorienting.

Always in such cases and surely I should and always always come back to the mercy of God and to the stability that only God can give.

May God have mercy on us.

Wednesday, May 20, 2026

Ascension (vespers)

Oh who shall sing the song

that I have loved since the days of my youth--

the song of the Lord’s Ascension into heaven,

of His love for us,

of the vigil He keeps for our coming?

~ St Silouan the Athonite

my life in pictures plus some thoughts

Pictures from yesterday and this morning 🌸🥰

It's hard to find balance in life, is part of what I am seeing. I need to figure out how to get exercise and do everything I need to do. Plus rest when I need it.

So I finished Volume 1 of The Unselected Journals of Emma M Lion. It's fabulous. Volume 2 I have begun and find it so deliciously funny at times. It's such a blessing to have books that give rest and enjoyment.

I am also back to reading more academic Orthodox theology. 🧐😳😂 And it's really good but also a workout intellectually speaking and creates lists upon lists of questions.

May God have mercy on us 🙏🕯️