Beauty and Hope

 

(from HERE)

(picture from 2016, June).

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When I was really sick I listened to so much disperate and beautiful music.

This was one of these. 

BECAUSE OF YOU I FOUND HOPE | Twelve Titans Music

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May God have mercy on us all. 

NYC 🍎 & glasses 🤓

Boy am I beat! Hopefully I have new glasses as in frames and lenses! The question is will the frames I picked out with help be too heavy because I have such a strong prescription. Hopefully it will be okay! 

I'm about halfway through the book that I got at the library for $2. It's interesting. She is a very different life and worldview than mine.  But I like learning about people.  

I'm really hoping that what I'm feeling is only allergies. Hopefully I'm not getting sick. Allergies were really high around here today. 

This weekend thankfully I can rest.  

May God have mercy on us. 🙏

a blessing of books and beauty

I had the blessing of going on a short walk! It may rain here soon and I was being careful and today I'm having a rest day! I was out 2 days in a row and I need to go to New York City again tomorrow...

So at one of the small grocery stores we have a few very small ones, I bought English muffins! Then I went to the library and they had books for sale and I got three for $6 total $2 each.  I'm sad that they're getting rid of them, but I'm happy to have them.  

The one in blue called the other family doctor I'm already starting to read! It's about a woman who felt called to be a veterinarian doctor for animals when she was a child and that's exactly what she did.  She must be in her early '60s by now.  It's well written so far and I'm really enjoying it.  It feels like a relief.  Like the writer is writing from a place of peace, with a lot of experience and stories to tell.  It feels like I'm getting a "book hug" ... Like it's calming.  Sometimes I realize when something feels better for me when I suddenly get the image of a baby with a pacifier calmed from crying.  Not that I've been crying.  But I feel emotions really big sometimes.  And life has its own intensity. We're an intense season right now. 

I had this lovely snack picture above.  It was also comforting to take pictures of it and enjoy the beauty and know I could share it here.  I had peanut butter on the apple slices.  🥰

I'm pretty tired right now and I'm easily overwhelmed.  But I know more what to do and how to deal with it.  Partly by communicating needs and my doing my best to take care of myself.

May God have mercy on us.

the last few days

Feast of Transfiguration, fish curry for lunch, using more of my special dishes for meals......

I am sleeping better but waking about 6 AM.  

A lot of intense things are going on for me and others.  I am glad for my planner, lists, journals, music, and books I can reread.  

I am doing research and writing as I can.  It's hard to be human, is a thought that often passes through my mind....

May God have mercy on us all 🙏