I had written this on as a comment on an IG feed that was dealing with the post-holiday blues and asking waht people do to help with them. I had said...
Tuesday, October 12, 2021
Monday, October 11, 2021
A quiet day today. Leftovers are glorious and today was no exception to that! I visited a new friend today! And I walked 5K steps so that was wonderful. God willing I am going to NYC tomorrow to my library! I hope to get some work done on my writing project that is slowly picking up speed again. I have so much to do just in writing project management and research threads that I need to continue working on. I felt really derailed by things the last weeks but hope, but who knows, that it will get better again. We shall see!
God bless you all and in whatever burdens you are struggling with right now... ❤
Sunday, October 10, 2021
10 Years Ago: on Friday: My Husband and I met for the first time in person and had a dinner party that night. 10 years ago my godson was born. 10 years ago we had our first Canadian Thanksgiving together. It was wonderful, a full weekend of meeting many friends and introducing Mr Husband (then my newly met dating-for-over-a-month long distance boyfriend) to everyone and everyone to him.
Today we had a lovely dinner (Roast Beef! Mashed potatoes, corn, beans, fried mushrooms with half an onion, salad) and dessert (Junior's Cheesecake! with one's choice of tea).
And they spoiled us with beautiful flowers from their garden, wine & gifts, pressies as my friend says. I love that about her. It was a real sense of homecoming and familarity. We had not had anyone over for dinner in a while (silly pandemic etc) and it was such a blessing.
We hope to have more in the future but we will see. God willing.
Meanwhile, I am so greatful for this evening, it had been such a long time. ❤
May God bless each and everyone of you...
Wednesday, October 06, 2021
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Loving our muffins and tea breakfasts, today with butter. I am thinking about my dear friend who left us last week. Larissa's funeral is tomorrow. She has no family. I, alone with our priest, went to her Mother's funeral years back. She will have three mourners at her funeral that I know of, though maybe a few more will come. Nearly everyone who knows her is middle aged or older. So when it is our turn to go, no one living will remember her. I have been thinking about this but am comforted because in an Orthodox (Christian) funeral we ask God that her memory be eternal. All of us will pass on but we are not forgotten by the One who made us. And that is my breakfast thoughts today, more serious than some days but comforting.
Tuesday, October 05, 2021
Sunday, October 03, 2021
We went to our local church today. A blessing. We suddenly have a growing list of people who have the virus right now. My friend and his Mother are the worst that I know of; he is on oxygen, the Mother is not improving, even worsening.
Sometimes all of a sudden things spiral out and one has to remember that God is still here, that in the middle of the storm, as Elizabeth Goudge writes in Gentian Hill, is where the calm is, the fortress.
May God have mercy on us.
Saturday, October 02, 2021
A young man I know and his Mother are both in hospital with the C-virus and his Mother is not doing well at all. Please I beg you to pray for them. My Husband and I are friends with the Mother's son and have had many delightful conversations with him. (I don't have permission to share their names but God knows).
Friday, October 01, 2021
A friend sent me this the other day, today we were going to go to the VNA rummage sale but after more people we knew got the virus or were exposed to it, we decided not to go. I am disappointed of course but at least I got the nice plates and cake pan this week, which were the biggest things I was hoping to find.
Today I went to liturgy for the Protection of the Mother of God. That was really good.
I am really wishing that I could just resume my life as it had been going, and get back to my writing project and have some sort of routine.
Lord have mercy.
Wednesday, September 29, 2021
Larissa's funeral was attended by her dear friend, myself, Mr Husband, and K from church; our priest and his wife did the service itself. It was sung beautifully and the memory eternal (a song towards the end) was sung in a very loving sing-song like melody that sounded very old and very dear and intimate; not a setting I had heard before. The sun was shining with a brillant blue sky and cool tempatures. Afterwards we went to A. B. back near church for dinner; Larissa's dear friend and my Husband and myself. We talked a lot about Patrick too, as Larissa's estate needs to be concluded and we were involved in Patrick's estate and have experience with it.
Larissa is now buried next to her parents. In 2014 when we buried her Mother, Mat Tatiana, the leaves were golden; the leaves were mostly green this time; I was so glad to be there.
Earlier this week we realized that we really can't go to the VNA rummage sale as we had long hoped. We concluded that it is just too risky with the pandemic and I am very much at peace about that.
I had been hoping to find especially 2 items there, a small cake pan and some pretty salad plates. So earlier this week I got plates, beautiful ones, from Etsy and also my new 6 inch cake pan. The pan came earlier this week and the plates, which were to come today, came yesterday. It was a comfort to have them, beauty always lightens and comforts me.
My cousin H said that, when I texted her a picture of my new plates, they had blue rose plates when she was growing up; that seems very familar to me; I remember our visits to Ontario and her home back then...
I got the pansy plate to match +Patrick's teacup that I got from his kitchen when he died. It matches so well, I am really happy to have this.
The 2nd of September marked 4 months before I turn 45. Time goes so quickly. I started this blog before I was 30 years old! I think I was 28... what a difference in age is that!
I remember Larissa, when she came to our home for Thanksgiving in 2018, saying how she used to be able to do stairs easily; old age and the infirmities that she felt were very hard for her. Her Mother lived much longer than she did; I think at first she was expecting to have the same trajectory but she was not as strong. And she had no living family to stay for. It was a blessing that she is no longer suffering; when I last saw her she was bright and at peace. I will always be glad I was able to read those prayers.
Doing the prayers was the one of the few things that I felt that I was really supposed to do; a lot of daily life seems not as clear; but those prayers, they were as clear as the clearest lake where you see into the depths.
God bless you all and keep you in His care!
Tuesday, September 28, 2021
Tomorrow is Larissa's funeral. At 10. We will be there before to help set up and make sure all is well. We are slowly praying this beautiful Akathist for Larissa, Akathist to Jesus Christ For a Loved One Who has Fallen Asleep. If you pray for the departed and don't know of this particuar resource, I highly recommend it. It's helped me numerous times grieve in hopeful, healthy ways.
I have gotten the house clean. I made a lovely small 6 inch vegan chocolate cake. I will try to share pictures later. I don't have them downloaded yet on my chromebook to do so.
I am still having some hip/leg pain issues (and was not able to go to PT this week for various reasons) so if you pray for me, please pray for me with the funeral and cemetary. It's going to be at least 4 hours between being early and by the time we have lunch outside at a resturant after the funeral. I know one thing. It will be a holy precious time and I am so so glad we can go to Larissa's funeral. I can't tell you how glad.
May God have mercy on us all and save us!
Monday, September 27, 2021
...more about Larissa. She has no family left now. No one at all. I was the only one, other than our priest, who went to her Mother's funeral. She had one other person in her life who is missing her termendously. ...
Her father was a priest named Fr Nicholas. He got cancer decades ago now and died of it. Larissa went all the way to Boston with him for treatment; some monks there helped them a lot. Her Mother, Mat Tatiana lived a long life and she is how I met Larissa when I was a new Bride and needed something to do. So my priest told me to visit Larissa's Mom in nursing home. And so the years went, and now Larissa is gone too.
I want to write more but I know I need to go to bed now.
Life has a lot of grief and loss in it.
For now, good night dear ones, God bless and keep you in His care.