Happy moments from tonight 💝🌹

While my Husband was at vespers I made my little Valentine's Day display!

my beloved husband got me roses as a pick-me-up 🥰🥰🥰🩷🌹🌹🌹💝

Life is not all one thing or another but getting out our traditional Valentine's Day decorations / cards really cheered me up! 🩷❤️🥰 My friend mailed me the cute kitty Valentine's Day card 💝🌹 

May God have mercy on us all.

Even so, today is still Valentine's Day

My husband gave me an Ortho book 🥰 as I call them 📚 ☦️ ... 

I had made him a Valentine's Day card ❤️🌹💝 Earlier this week.

We both had a chocolate (there went my resolve to NOT have sugar 🤔🤣) he had the pecan delight and I had the dark chocolate caramel ❤️🍫... 

I have to find him my other Valentine's Day card ❤️. 

I'm still listening to the same Noble grief song of beauty that I blogged about in my blog post before this one. 

I'm going to go find my other Valentine's Day card for my sweetie. Now. I know just where it is! 🩷❤️

I will not write more about this

I was so excited about having the lady be a caregiver.  Out of respect and charity towards all, I can say this:

Years ago, as long time readers will know, I was let go from a job just days before my 6 months were up and I would be a permanent employee.  A lady who was hired to support me (I had the higher position) stayed in contact with told me how distressed my boss was.  Years later, when I was perhaps more mature, I understood that my boss actually cared about me.  She was in an impossible situation. She actually flew to Ottawa to be with me when I was terminated and was trying not to cry.  

Now I understand because it's me now, crying because I liked the woman we employed but it was in the end an impossible situation and we have parted ways, paid her wages and are done.

The song 2:14​ Prime (Version) and others in this set I was given last summer and I found it again yesterday (remember my phone died in November and I lost all my WhatsApp chats and YouTube downloads) and to me it expresses the great love and tragedy of life. I listened to it a lot this past summer in Ottawa when God did a lot but I was still so pitiablely sick. 

this song REALLY does this ⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️ 

Music is amazing for what it can express and give words to the unspeakable grief tragedy beauty and love that is all mixed together.

Sometimes you only have a person in your life briefly for reasons you don't know.

I was getting more sick not less because of the situation that is now over.  But I saw great beauty in her even though we only had a week together.

May God have mercy on us all.

reduced to silence

So the more I talk, the more exhausted I am.  And talking is aggravating my bronchitis.  If that gets really bad, I can't sleep at all because I am coughing too much to sleep. 

Last night about 10:20 pm I hit a wall and was basically sobbing. My Husband kindly let me have my Hug from God Bible verses / prayer card in a box because all I could think of is "I need a hug from God"...

I read all 60 verses through once and before that half of the verses. It's really nice.

I have an unbloggable concern that I need to figure out / come to peace about and surrender to the Lord.

I am very tired.  But God has a reason for all of this.  

The WONDERFUL thing was that I had Confession and Communion early this morning!

May God have mercy on us.

11 to 5

Slept about 6 hours thank God. Listening to Holy Cross now.

The coughing is getting deeper, I don't know how to explain it.  I mean in sound.  Lots of post nasal drip.  

I watched My Man Godfrey yesterday which was light and silly.

I think this is going to take a while to heal from.  May God have mercy on us.

made it through the 9 to 5

I made it. I am so tired. For various reasons I wasn't able to nap today. So I'm going on an hour and a half of sleep total which is not good. Hopefully tonight I will sleep better. There was multiple things that went wrong last night. One of them being that my hot water bottles were cold and I forgot to take my ibuprofen. But I was also coughing a lot. I'm going to rest now.  Really appreciate everyone's prayers. May God have mercy on us.

rough night

I didn't sleep really at all. Am coughing more again. Ankle / foot discomfort. 🙏 may God have mercy on us.

a quiet day

Today was a good day.  I didn't sleep as much during the day. Hopefully tonight.  I am enjoying a new to me mystery book... 

It's strange how you can feel thankful blessed and sad at the same time.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.  May God have mercy on us.

I slept 🥳

I slept! Now I understand how depleted and sick I really am.  Because I am coughing a lot and am flu-levels fatigued, when all you can do is sleep.

I am very grateful.

I see this as a learning opportunity, how to take care of yourself when your body needs a LOT of TLC.

May God have mercy on us!

Sleep A Blessed Thing

I only had 4 hours sleep last night, But I had some naps which were great.  I can't believe my good fortune in having the help I have. I can actually just rest.  It's like I am Katherine Wentworth when she has rest after many years of exhaustion.  I am physically still very tired, coughing a lot, and such.  

I pray that I can sleep tonight.

This song is beautiful, no words but the music speaks of wonder, beauty. 

This song is also lovely.

I am very tired but thankful. 

May God have mercy on us.

no pneumonia only bronchitis 🥳🥳🥳🥳

Good news. I don't have pneumonia, only bronchitis!!!

Today was a good day but long. The person who had advised me to do the lung x-ray failed to give me a script and I didn't realize the problem. So I was able to solve it but it added over an hour time at the X-ray place trying to sort it out with my virtual medical team.  I swear I had to sort them out 🤣🧐😳🤔

I had a good talk with my doctor about various ways to heal and gain strength. It was obvious to me that while I was in a month of much better health or over a month, I still got too depleted. Trying to figure all this out is really a process! 

I got this lovely pad of paper and oil pastels that I look forward to using. Today. I had to be up a lot and I'm definitely needing rest. So I'm so glad the rest of the week should God willing. Have a lot more rest in it. When I was at the place for the X-ray I was literally falling asleep in my chair waiting! 

I have so many blessings in my life and I'm so very grateful! 

May God have mercy on us. 

will try for x-ray again

I wrote (to my Romanian BF in Romania) about 4:30 AM the following (since she is in Bucharest time zone) ~ I am getting worse. I think the lady who is coming needs to take me for an x-ray. I get like post nasal drip and then it's like I am gasping for air and coughing. I have a video consult with my GP at 2:30. I can get the x-ray in the morning.  ~ just woke up and wrote ~ I slept more 🥰 Will do X-Ray. (Husband) filled my water bottle 1/3 full so not too heavy. I kept it on my chest like a compress, kept me warm too 🩷

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We met with a lovely lady who we hired to help me.  We are very blessed to have this option.  

Please pray that I can get an x-ray with not too much trouble or wait.  I will call FIRST to be sure they have tech. 🙏🩷🕯️

I SLEPT which is huge other than that times I coughed like that.  I am really grateful.

This SONG is my wakeup alarm and it's very GOOD!

May God have mercy on us!

prayer cards

I love the prayer cards addition 🩷🥰🙏🕯️

Sunday finally my coffee table is organized

Well, I have a video appointment with my GP tomorrow afternoon.  My cough is not as bad but it's not great.   I am struggling with some worries about it.  I think I am overtired, which is indeed the case.  

I got some oil pastels and paper. 

I am really glad for the song "it's OK" because it's so deeply mothering and comforting. 

As you see I finally managed to get my cloth bin out.  I had this on the bed when I had my 2017 foot fracture.  It's so helpful because it keeps everything neat.  I feel so much better because things are not so messy.

I got a card from my local church which was really nice.  My Husband went around with the card at church ☺️☺️☺️

I really hope I sleep ok.  That would be great.  

I hope God comforts your heart and blesses you!

May God have mercy on us!