a very needed day of quiet

A blessed day of rest. 

Reading Theo of Golden, much thanks to my blog friend Sara for the recommendation! 

I slept better last night. Thank God. It's been up and down again lately.  Yesterday was difficult. 

So today I knew I needed as much alone time as possible to basically recoup and in a way re-stabilize. 

I'm very grateful for my New York City day because I got a lot done. I'm very comforted by one of the journals I bought for my future. God willing because it's so beautiful and yet functional. 

I'm grateful that I have the other two frames and put cards in them. They will be for my two adult goddaughters who I haven't given them to yet.  It's so while apart, we have something that is the same other than our bond and faith in Christ.  

Thank God for His Mercy.  

I've been going through a lot of old papers and this morning I filed a list of Christmas gifts I had done probably in 2022.  It's funny how you don't realize how wonderful something is at the time until it's taken from you.  But I'm trying to live a little differently now.  To not assume I will have permanency but instead do my best everyday to love those I'm with and to cherish where I am.  

I really love my life here. Yes, I've been through something incredibly difficult that gave me the illness of complex PTSD. But yet life is more beautiful than ever.  

May God have mercy on us.

and the last 2 days

Yesterday NYC.  

Breakfast with my Husband.

Then shopping 🛍️

Tea and Sympathy for lunch.

Walked to Harney and Sons.

Walked to 9th St PATH train 

Grabbed a book from my local library.

Home.  Bath. 

Later: our washing machine started leaking water out the door.

Today: diagnostic and parts ordered.  By next week it will God willing be fixed.

Reorganized and cleaned things.

Insomnia again.

May God have mercy on us 🙏

Two Nights Better Sleep, it's like I am a new woman (almost)

Ok. I am actually still tired since I had a week of 

more insomnia but wow, sleep does wonders. 

OK so my beloved blog friend Sara alerted me to two authors

I had not heard of before! BLESSED RELIEF as I needed

new material to read and love! 

OK so Emma M Lion I am still in Volume 1 but I am already planning

on buying all 8 (9 when the next one comes out) volumes this summer.

She's so FUN.  Author Beth Browers is on the cusp of the world stage as an

author and I am so thrilled for her.  

I did a deep dive and researched her on May 5, last week Tuesday.

When you see headlines like this:

Indie author Beth Brower is poised to take her Emma M

Lion series global

you are basically looking at stardom of some level.

Will she be the next Harry Potter? 

I can only HOPE so! 

Because she has SOMETHING and I LOVE it.

Meanwhile, I am listening to music on my light PINK headphones,

as my Husband is still asleep LOL.

I have been up since 5 AM something but that's way better than before.

Yesterday at our local church the Bishop was here

and it was really lovely.

This church is having a real revival, with tons of young people

and it was so beautiful to have the Bishop be surrounded by

young people wanting to know more about how to live as 

a Christian and an Orthodox Christian as well. 

May God protect this church and all Christian churches! 

***

Ok. it's nearing 8 AM.  I am tired!!! Whew.

OH so like after a week or less my newer 

Chromebook Resurrected AGAIN. 

My Husband has a magic touch.

He was like how long has your Chromebook been unplugged?

Days I said. 

And he was like let me look at it, in his kind warm voice

and I said OK and he opened it and 

voilà / wallah ~~  

It magically turned on without him touching a BUTTON. 

We think it may have to do with a battery problem.

I was also using a very small memory drive and 

I noticed it gets hot and something is wrong there so I unplugged that

and we also have adaptive charging on (supposed to go only to 80% but

TBH (to be honest) I think it went to 100% again) so we will see.

***

So that's THAT. 

May God have mercy on us. 

And I pray I keep sleeping better...! 

Life is like that

Life, often inexplicable.  My Chromebook stopped working. Until yesterday.  We think it was over charged and now have adaptive charging on so that it will not be fully charged unless I specify it.

I have had a lot of insomnia this past week, a sort of PTSD-Grief trigger.  

Last night God gave me a better sleep but I am weary and in depletion mode so I have to try to be careful and rest.

My writing project is ongoing.

I am reading some lovely books.

May God have mercy on us. 

beauty & .......

Walked over 3 miles.  I thought how I am not in a hurry to get older like I was when in my 20s! 

50 years old is just half a year away now.

Grief is a very strange thing I find.

All I know is that I am in an intense process of healing and adjusting to my life post-memory loss and the losses I sustained at times still painfully surprise and grieve me.  It is unavoidable and I just have to accept the process that I am in.

I just keep asking God that I will be in His will no matter what.

At the same time I am so grateful for everything I do have, which is an abundance of blessings.

May God have mercy on us all.

briefly here, May 4th 2026

Christ is risen! Truly He is risen!

I still need a lot of quiet.

I can walk again, normally!

Pictures from today and yesterday. 

I'm in a really good but intense of healing and kind of readjustment in a way.

I'm also involved in some very deep dive research that keeps me very busy. 

I read something that made me feel like Albert Einstein just discovering E = mc², though it won't have such huge results, I don't think! 🤣🤣🤣 

But something really clicked for me but I have so much more work to do to really get a handle on what I'm trying to understand.

I pray for God's mercy for all of us.