Saturday Cold and White

Today I cleaned.

After I submitted another cover letter and resume

yesterday

I did laundry; I dry laundry all by hand.

Now laundry and dishes are done.

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Every morning lately I wake up

like I have gotten a cold;

using Kleenex, coughing, congestion;

within a few hours I feel fine again.

In case it is allergies,

I swept all dust bunnies away.

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A friend told me that it could be nerves

and that he gets that sometimes.

Sigh.

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I could not help though

thinking that even though I really needed to clean

that it meant I was not job searching at the same time.

Yet the cleaning was needed.

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I am seeking to trust God for what I need.

I am struggling with anxiety;

due to circumstances outside of our control,

there could be no confessions tonight.

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Monastics have told me about submitting everything

to God and trusting God to do in a day

what is needed;

so I seek to learn this in all things.

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I want to learn this;

to be at peace;

not obey Christ and not worry.

Today it snowed and snowed.

It was cloudy all day with snow - a type of 'snow-fog.'

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I am glad for a clean house.

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I am really looking forward God-willing

to liturgy tomorrow.

I thought a cute and kind a funny picture of Cleo

was needed about now.

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Twice this week she has decided to hide

in this blue pillow

that is on my IKEA arm-less arm chair.

So cute.

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I have other friends that are also struggling

right now -

for reasons of privacy I can't way their names

but can you pray for two of my friends today?

They are in great need.