Today I cleaned.
After I submitted another cover letter and resume
I did laundry; I dry laundry all by hand.
Now laundry and dishes are done.
Every morning lately I wake up
like I have gotten a cold;
using Kleenex, coughing, congestion;
within a few hours I feel fine again.
In case it is allergies,
I swept all dust bunnies away.
A friend told me that it could be nerves
and that he gets that sometimes.
I could not help though
thinking that even though I really needed to clean
that it meant I was not job searching at the same time.
Yet the cleaning was needed.
I am seeking to trust God for what I need.
I am struggling with anxiety;
due to circumstances outside of our control,
there could be no confessions tonight.
Monastics have told me about submitting everything
to God and trusting God to do in a day
what is needed;
so I seek to learn this in all things.
I want to learn this;
to be at peace;
not obey Christ and not worry.
Today it snowed and snowed.
It was cloudy all day with snow - a type of 'snow-fog.'
I am glad for a clean house.
I am really looking forward God-willing
to liturgy tomorrow.