After a very intense last week -
interview, job applications, interview prep
the baptism (so wonderful)
Sunday church (wonderful as well)
today I had to rest.
I have a really big interview Wednesday but
know myself well enough that if I did not
listen to how I was feeling
I would not be able to regain the momentum
I need for Wednesday.
Add to that continued insomnia due to medicine,
Cleo getting sick in the night
(she's fine now by all accounts)
and city noises,
I knew that I could not push it today.
Also, this morning the old contract
I thought I was doing weeks ago
was mentioned again but at the end of today
I still don't know if I am doing that work or not.
So much instability right now;
I feel really weary.
I am struggling with the fact that
I will really only have one day to prepare for this interview.
But God is merciful and He will carry me through this
and He knows each detail of my life and is
in charge of ordering it.
If I needed a day to recover and be quiet
then so be it.
Better to be quiet and seek to remember God
admits the anxious struggles
than to charge ahead heedless.
All this aside, I have been keeping a candle lit for
others, including MamaJuliana
who was to have surgery today.
Let us remember one another in prayer.