It looks like I may have an interview
at the end of this month
as well as the one this Friday.
I have really changed my reading habits over
the last two years;
have been thinking about this change for about
three or four years.
Some changes I run headlong into
others take a bit longer.
Everyone is different and every one's journey
and spiritual life is unique;
that is why there are so many Saints and they are all
I have been wanting to do more and more to gain
the peace that I know Christ offers
but that I have a hard time guarding.
It came to be that I became more open to radical
(or to me radical) steps to gain peace.
I am also someone who is easily impacted by outward happenings;
I blogged years ago about realizing that even listening to Amy Grant
(a childhood favourite)
would disturb my sense of inward peace.
I am what is written in the book
a book that I have never read all the words of
as I would find myself reading it too fast and get overwhelmed.
Which is kind of funny... :)
If I was a really spiritually strong person outward events
would not disturb me as they do;
I see this from my reading that I am slowly doing
on Saints and on prayer
(btw I am LOVING the wisdom I am seeing in
it's tying into the Ladder that I am reading;
will have to blog about that later).
I have been slowly trying to do more to gain peace
since I declared war on anxiety over year ago;
can't say I am always winning this one.
I sure felt overwhelmed again this morning!
Actually I don't know that I can say I gained anything yet.
But I believe that with God gain is possible.
That is something I am slowly seeing.
So what is the radical thing that I have changed?
After all this prefacing of it,
the change may seem minor :)
After thoughts, discussions with appropriate persons,
I decided that I should forgo reading mystery books.
Which for me was a HUGE change!
I read mystery books for years.
Even blogged about them.
I was like a 'mini-specialist' on them,
I read them so much.
And I am NOT at ALL saying that this is what others should do.
It's just that I have felt that if it will help me gain peace
than it is more than worth it.
Guess I will have to get back to you on whether it helps or not;
give me another ten years or so,
if God grants them to us all.
So I am selling my Agatha Christie collection.
I put it online about a month ago or so and a buyer has been found
and seems excited to be getting them - for her husband as a gift.
Which is really sweet and lovely.
So that makes me feel a bit better about giving them away.
Not getting tons for it, but I did not buy it for that much either.
I do have two biographies of her that I think I will keep,
but other than that,
I am saying goodbye to them.
It is bittersweet.
I hope to get a job so I can keep that money
and buy something special with it;
I already have a few books in mind...
If it can help me gain Christ though,
it is more than worth it.
I feel really run down
and in danger of falling prey to the flu.
What do you do to rejuvenate?
I am already doing some interview preparation
but I guess the selling of books was such a big thing
to me that I wanted to write about it.
Am thinking of MamaJuliana who had surgery today.
Let us remember her in prayer.
God is with us.