Interview tomorrow morning.
I feel like I began today well but then well
fell apart into scattered pieces.
Part of it is that I feel like I don't have enough of
the pieces of this particular puzzle;
I wish I felt more of a clear understanding of
the job I am interviewing for tomorrow.
I realize that I am failing to take one day at a time
and to trust God;
I am grateful to God for His mercy in these times;
I find job interviews exhausting -
it is like having tons of oral exams;
first you have to try to study for them but
did not have a teacher to learn from first
just the school of your own work experiences
and interview research and preparation;
you have know idea what the questions will be,
just the main topic of the exam;
but the exam is not just to pass a course,
it is to get a job.
No pressure, right?
I've interviewed with this organization before
and the interview is long -
at least 75 minutes
with three/four people meeting you.
I just want to get on with my life,
have some sense of stability and routine
and a job that does not destroy me.
Whether the job I interview tomorrow is such a job
I am really not sure.
Still weary but at least yesterday I was able to make
and buy food for the week and I have medicine to try to
counteract the insomnia from the other
please pray for me,
for help, wisdom, strength and the mercy of God.