I am still home in Michigan.
The insomnia has continued to the point that
I made breakfast and then went back to bed.
Got up again later, ate and soon went back to bed.
What I did not remember is that when I got up in the morning
I had put the kettle on for tea.
A kettle I have never gotten used to,
that would not snap shut like mine
and today I made a significant mistake.
I forgot I put it on all together.
The part that closes over the spout must not of closed properly
and I never heard it boil; my sister and brother-in-law
never heard it either.
My Dad found it -
thank God for His protection -
the was burner still on (!)
the water (it had been a full kettle)
the porcelain on the kettle actually burnt on
to the oven burner.
This is a mistake I never wanted to make;
not only was it a fire hazard...
Not my most shining moment.
So why tell you about it?
Because it impressed me again in what I have seen
in my Father.
I went to make lunch, thought tea would be nice
and instantly remembered that I was making tea
at 8 this morning
looked over, and there was no kettle, just the burner ring
and crumb tray.
I immediately put on my jacket, scarf, shoes
and went to my Dad's shop.
(My Dad is a professional painter of houses and
paints the doors, cupboards, and such things
in his shop which is near by to the house.)
I told him I realized what happened and asked about it.
Not a hint of reproach.
Yes, the kettle is now in the trash.
The burner has porcelain seared on to it that my Dad
has tried to remove.
I of course confessed to the deed and I am sure
he knew I did it anyway.
When I said I could buy a new one,
"Just worry about getting a job."
Whenever I have read about St. Silouan's father
and how gentle he was
how slow to reproach
and how quiet in it all,
It has always made me think of my Dad.
When I see this in my Dad once again
I am so thankful.
I did nothing to deserve such kindness.
We have had our extended family Christmas time;
My immediate family are not exchanging gifts
until my birthday,
We will celebrate my sister Rebecca's birthday as well,
especially as it was a significant birthday for her
she is now 30.