Sunday, with many blessings

Saw our dear friend today, who is the Mother of our goddaughter...

My meal was labeled as follows: 

Home Made Summer Fettucine:

Jersey Tomatoes, Corn, Green Peas, Spinach-Walnut Pesto, Parmesan Reggiano

and it was super wonderful.

As was the flourless chocolate torte with caramel sea-salt gelato 

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So, I have learned a bit in my day about how to deal with anxiety.

I struggle with it, as many do.

Last night I woke up with that feeling I have not felt in years.

I started doing what needed to be done immediately:

drink a bit of Holy Water, start praying, read Psalms, walk around a bit,

look at icons, think of other things (often this includes thinking about

how I would do something, either baking/cooking, drawing, about a tiny icon

I wish to have in a locket one day), read peaceful things, until I am not plagued with

intense feelings of anxiety.

Basically do everything I can to change direction within my thoughts 

and calm my body.

I have only had one panic attack in my life,

years ago when I was under huge stress and someone suddenly

shattered the inner safety door at the entrance of my apartment building.

The next morning glass was still on the floor, with a metal frame with

glass still in it, of what was left of that door.

The good news is that I did NOT go into a panic attack!

And that I was able to sleep again too!

I find the Psalter (Psalms) super helpful in this...

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Things are much better now...

I was able to talk to our dear friend about the unbloggable

and emailed another dear one who totally got where I was coming from,

and texted with my sister as well.... 

and with God's grace, the prayers in the church and at home,

a good talk with my Husband, checking in with my Dad, they made it to PA

and are doing well; rest of the trip here tomorrow!... 

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So I am at peace and ready for this week.

I also, thinking I was thinking ahead, went to the pantry with

the recipe up on my phone when I realized that I had to 

marinade the pork tonight! Eekkk!!!

So I did and I really hope we all enjoy it!

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I may try to go to PT tomorrow morning if they have room;

my foot and leg, ouch!

We will see.

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My house, as the coffee table shows, is not fully picked up but

nor is it terrible.  I got all I need:

a good novel, the Gospels, the Psalms, prayer book, L'Engle,

a cookbook, my phone headphones, prayers, Kleenex.

Pretty much covers it.

And tomorrow I get a bit more in groceries and we will be set!