Friday, October 29, 2010

Friday late Autumn sun with leaves underfeet: moving towards November

I wish this picture could really capture the depth of the

brightness of the sky's light and the shade of blue.



No job news this week!

Next week: applying for another library position that

has caught my fancy;

and seeing about getting in between clerical work while

I keep looking.

I am here to say that looking for work and suddenly falling into dream

about a new job posting

is almost like being young and in love with someone that is

oblivious to your love;

a job add emailed application holds a promise

but perhaps no fruition.

I hope that does not sound too sad or pitiable,

I am really not meaning it that way,

just that it is a similar emotional rush to it

because dreams are attached.

Let's just be thankful that God wishes us to be anchored in Him

who is not a dream...

I wish it were not this way, with suddenly falling into dream

about a job... as this is not evidence, I think, of a full

spiritual maturity; but...

as I said to a friend today,

Thank God that God is long suffering!!

This flower was pressed years ago for me

and some others as part of a well-meant loving reminder of how

something beautiful may be hidden and waiting for us,

that God has a plan for our lives.

I always kept this gift of the small yellow pressed flower as

a hope in this promise.

And while God holds true;

I am wondering if the Protestant emphasis on

God has a plan for you life - great and beautiful things are in store

is perhaps a bit misleading or even untrue.

Kind of liking falling into dream...

For now,
Cleo and I keep looking.
Here's a great place to spend some time in the blog world:
I really value Macrina Walker's blog
while I am not as much an academic*
(though I can't get away from that side of myself
and perhaps should not try)
I love books and this definitely includes Orthodox books,
many of which she quotes at length.
May God strengthen us with thanksgiving as we go towards
November's month...
*I mean by saying I am not so much an academic is that I have not read much of the significant
academic tomes on Orthodox theology... but perhaps one day, as God wills...


GretchenJoanna said...

It doesn't seem to me that you have a habit of living in a fantasy land regarding your future. What is bad is when someone daydreams and does nothing useful toward the goal. Just applying for a job and thinking that you *might* even get it -- well, it seems only logical, otherwise there'd be no reason to apply for it. You're just using your imagination, and I think in a good way.

TeresaAngelina said...

Your cat is purrfectly adorable.

margaret said...

Cardinal Newman said that God definitely has a plan for our lives but that we may not know it until the next life.

Elizabeth @ The Garden Window said...

Sending love and prayers, as always.

Special hugs to Cleo, who looks absolutely adorable :-)