Suddenly the truth breaks;
Life is unpredictable; messy; unexplainable;
What does it mean to live in increasing ambiguity.
To live in the present moment,
not in the unknown future
not planning for what is not plannable.
French may not work out for me.
Today I found out that in Canada unemployment is taxed.
I will have less money than I thought.
Enough money to get by, but not to save.
What to do?
I do not know yet.
But I washed my dishes. Planned a meal.
Looked at a job description.
Disciplined my cat.
Am praying at church today.
Making a list of all the many things I need to do.
Controlling my future is no longer on my list.
That is on God's list.
I can only do what is on my list and in my capacity.
Do not worry
has to be on the top of my list.