Well, I read various things today, more life-giving and peaceful.
I read some things online and realize anew how, for myself,
I really need to stay within what I have and
that various dreams of mine
(like years ago my dream at 18 of being a professor or later
dreaming of being a famous writer) would have been so
destructive to me. Truly. When I had those dreams,
I did not know/understand/comprehend the society that
was out there and how destructive it can be and
how, knowing who I am and am made to be, it would have
only brought me farther and farther away from
who I am, away from places I did not know then
that would give peace, healing and a home for my self,
where I could endeavour to have a house for my soul.
Well, I got another DE Stevenson book today in the mail
and 4 Miss Read books!
Tonight is the last night/day for feasting for us on the Julian (old) calendar,
the Dormition Fast begins tomorrow!
My house is clean again, I got lots of laundry done,
it rained a lot in the morning.
I am really seeing the seasons begin to shift.
I still have the same struggles that I blogged about yesterday but
the video I am putting below reminded me of
how I really have found a spiritual home in the
Orthodox Church and, while I have not been in the church
in this video (though I know at least by sight many of the people in it),
and how this home is a place of great beauty, healing and protection
in a world that is full of hurt, confusion and pain, to say the least.
I really do hope that I get to write essays again.
I want to share more on the hope I have been given, the hope I see
and the hope I am still learning about,
in what I see and have been given in the Church.
Anyway, here's the video: