When asked why I am alive, I thought about it and wrote this

Been thinking about this one. I think there are various levels.

1. To live and die (as) a Christian; faithful to Christ, the Church, fasts, feasts, sacraments of confession, Eucharist.... 

2. To create a place of beauty and refuge, a haven, in a troubled world. That's always been my desire. When I was young though I was not aware that I also needed a place of beauty and refuge that would heal me. Ultimately this is found only with Christ and in His Church; but in small ways our homes can be 'little home churches' and also places of beauty and order that can give rest. I have not achieved this yet as my Husband can attest (I have house clutter etc) but this is really a big part of what I feel I can actually do in my life.

 3. In small (and imperfect ways) point to the HOPE that there really ARE places of hope, beauty, dignity and rest and that with Christ we really can be saved; that in the midst of all the trouble, there can be those places that can heal, restore and give rest to a very weary and troubled world. 

4. This (#3) can be done through books and even some movies (at least in the past) ... Elizabeth Goudge books are big in this (rest, refuge, beauty, hope, Christ) but I know even of a movie like the Sound of Music has given to one I knew a dream and vision of a life that was so much better than the one she knew.