Monday, June 21, 2010

Monday, the day before my Mother's birthday

This is the week of the next interview.

I have begun preparing.

I feel a bit nervous to say the least

and have so much I need to review

and prepare answer for.

My French classes are winding down.

Even though they were not perfect,

I will miss them.

It seems that in a lot of ways I am still where I was

a year ago;

tomorrow is my Mother's birthday...

*

I struggle with the unknown

with transitions

with being patient

with having faith.

**

Lord help me!

***

Yet life goes on.

Saw the husband of the neighbour who has cancer.

She is doing okay

but he said he thought he almost lost her

a while back,

when she was so sick from chemo.

Lord help us all,

there is so much to bear at times,

so much.

***

Today was a beautiful sun-filled day.

The green on the trees is so comforting

as I walk underneath their canopies

even here in the city.

Strawberries are in season
and
on sale.
I told my Mom today on the phone
that today is the first day I remember
buying strawberries
for myself to eat.
What took me so long?!
*
In ways it rather breaks my heart to be preparing
for a job interview
that I can not yet pass the French test for.
**
I took a practice French test this weekend.
It was hard.
I didn't even finish it.
10 questions on the subjunctif
which I have not learned yet
at all.
***
But now I know how it is
and what I need to learn
and all is not lost
and I must not give up
or give in
to weariness.
***
I must cry out to God
save me
I looked at the waves
I am drowning
like Peter
Save me, O Lord,
in Your great mercy and compassion,
Reach down and pull me out of the waters,
out of the fiery pit.
Bring me into Paradise
with trees of green, with Peacocks
and a riot of vibrant coulors,
with birds praising in the dawn.

9 comments:

E Helena E said...

More of your beautiful photos...Many years to your mother!
I am praying for your interview; please pray for mine. I wouldn't be surprised at all if the anticipated French questions on mine will also be my undoing. Indeed, it's so easy to give up and fall into weariness. Save us, O Good Lord! Love to you.

elizabeth said...

Thanks! I so love taking pictures...

when is your interview?
will pray.
Yes, we must NOT give up

nous devons!

E Helena E said...

Demain après-midi! Merçi pour tes prières. I am flying by the seat of my pants, and as you know, have very mixed feelings about it. May God's will be done!

Remember that everyone loves those photos of yours. You have a real eye for colour and composition.

elizabeth said...

Okay... will pray, Lord have mercy! Most Holy Theotokos Save us! St. Helena pray for your servants!

Thanks for affirming my photos... I still wish I could do something with them but feel that this is not the time (esp this week eek!)

I am hoping however to wake up to sunshine tomorrow earlier and go out and take more pictures... it is good for my soul it seems...

Marigold said...

Many years to Elizabeth's mum! :D

You will be in my prayers and thoughts this coming week; I know it's much easier said than done but try not to worry about that interview too much. It's only a few piddly moments in the history of the universe. If you ace it, glory to God! If you completely bomb it, glory to God again! (But I know which way I think you'll go... ;P)

x

Michelle M. said...

Happy Birthday to your mom! I'll pray for you as you prepare!

Molly Sabourin said...

This is a beautiful and thoughtful post, Elizabeth. May God have mercy on us all!

Beth said...

Prayers for you.

And as always, thank you for your lovely pictures.

elizabeth said...

Thanks Marigold, I found that really comforting... how small this interview is...

thank you Michelle for your prayers!

Thanks Molly for appreciating this post! That means a lot to me :)

and thanks Beth for loving my pictures and for your prayers!


I am so blessed by you all!