I love Irises.
I my later summers (late teens, twenties) in May/June
I would see many Irises at my home.
This year marks my 32nd year.
This particular day is my Mother's Birth day.
I will call her later on today.
This day and week I was fearing though.
My class is over and nothing new has started in my life yet.
The yawning emptiness of the unknown frightens me.
But I have to go through it.
I know I am in this exact situation because I need to learn from it.
And I need to learn to not fear and to love.
I am praying that God will heal me by His love;
that the time of tearing down, if He wills, is over for a little while
that my life can be rebuilt
and that I will learn to participate in this rebuilding;
in God's salvation for my life
and for the world...
I am learning to take walks alone again
and be okay with being alone
but at the same time,
reaching out to people,
inviting them to my world, my life, my home.