Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Visiting Vladyka John





So while in CA 2 weeks ago, 
I went to see
St John, still called by many, Vladkya John.
My favourite stories of him come out of an out of print book,
esp the stories by the woman in France who knew him
and writes of how his prayers helped her after he left France
and after he departed to the Mansions of the Righteous. 
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So, there is a section towards the very end of CS Lewis' novel
till we have faces that talks about the main character saying
"I have no more questions, you are the answer" 
which is close to how it was when I was with St John.
I was given this deep sense of peace, a quiet joy, as if I was in a
different space, so much so that the prayers I thought I would be praying
with a sense of anguish, I felt like I nearly forgot to pray at all,
as it was like I had no problems at all, no worries, just this sense of peace,
of joy, something beyond myself or even my experience at the time,
as in I have been struggling a lot with feelings of worry and 
of a sense of weariness but there, I felt like it was all taken away,
as if I forgot the problems had ever been there...
so this was what God gave me, in the presence of this Saint
who loved Christ so much and was full of the Holy Spirit. 
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It was very special.
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I know that I am weak and don't know how to keep this peace within
myself but I hope I will never forget what it was like
and what I was given that day.

5 comments:

Mary said...

Lewis again--- your comments remind me of "Till We Have Faces". The closest we come to being our real selves-the selves Christ intended-was in that place in time you experienced. And in the sacrament of Holy Eucharist.He is all-and everything-we need. So much beauty and joy in your words Elizabeth. Thank God.

Mary said...

Lewis again--- your comments remind me of "Till We Have Faces". The closest we come to being our real selves-the selves Christ intended-was in that place in time you experienced. And in the sacrament of Holy Eucharist.He is all-and everything-we need. So much beauty and joy in your words Elizabeth. Thank God.

elizabeth said...

Hi Mary, thanks! yes, I can see and fully believe that! yes, HE is everything!!! thanks be to God!

Mat Anna said...

St. Porphyrios said that God gives us this grace, this foretaste of heaven, just for a little while so we can remember it. If we keep it close to our heart we will be encouraged in our struggle.

Lisa Richards said...

The enemy sure works hard to remove our peace through so many things throughout the day. But Jesus really is all we need. It's an ongoing journey. His mercies are new every morning!