Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Not Knowing Can Be Hard

God has blessed me so much with family and friends. I do not know how we get on without such support.

Today I went to liturgy for Mid-Pentecost. Beautiful. A Feast Day. I wore paschal white and my deep pink scarf. Dressing up for feasts is, especially when life is challenging, important; putting on one's best is an act of courage. And, in this case, of worship.

I finally called World Vision. I have no income coming in, do not know what I am doing yet and felt that I could not continue paying monthly support to the child. This is in deferment until November, or until I call to say otherwise. This was not an easy decision and not made without tears.

I am learning more on being present to where I am. Cleo is sitting by my feet. The sun is shining. My apartment is in the process of being cleaned, again. I feel a bit overwhelmed, but I am trying to do the best I can with today.

9 comments:

Mimi said...

Hugs, I understand.
Blessing of the Feast to you!

elizabeth said...

Yeah.

And thanks!! Blessed Feast also to you!

TruthQuestioner said...

My prayers! Peace to you. Be encouraged!

Michelle M. said...

I am sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed. We went through a time when our finances were really tight and I had to cancel our sponsorship of a beautiful little boy that I had been sponsoring for years. It was a very hard decision. I am sorry you had to go through that as well. Prayers!

elizabeth said...

Thank you so much S!
and thank you Michelle - yes. it is not easy - one thing at a time!

Pres. Kathy said...

Some things we have to do in out life are difficult, but God knows where our heart is. Hugs!

elizabeth said...

Thank you so much Pres. Kathy!

Victoria said...

you are loved by many and are in our prayers.

elizabeth said...

thank you so much V. This means a lot to me. I am making it only because of this love and the prayers!