reduced to silence

So the more I talk, the more exhausted I am.  And talking is aggravating my bronchitis.  If that gets really bad, I can't sleep at all because I am coughing too much to sleep. 

Last night about 10:20 pm I hit a wall and was basically sobbing. My Husband kindly let me have my Hug from God Bible verses / prayer card in a box because all I could think of is "I need a hug from God"...

I read all 60 verses through once and before that half of the verses. It's really nice.

I have an unbloggable concern that I need to figure out / come to peace about and surrender to the Lord.

I am very tired.  But God has a reason for all of this.  

The WONDERFUL thing was that I had Confession and Communion early this morning!

May God have mercy on us.

11 to 5

Slept about 6 hours thank God. Listening to Holy Cross now.

The coughing is getting deeper, I don't know how to explain it.  I mean in sound.  Lots of post nasal drip.  

I watched My Man Godfrey yesterday which was light and silly.

I think this is going to take a while to heal from.  May God have mercy on us.

made it through the 9 to 5

I made it. I am so tired. For various reasons I wasn't able to nap today. So I'm going on an hour and a half of sleep total which is not good. Hopefully tonight I will sleep better. There was multiple things that went wrong last night. One of them being that my hot water bottles were cold and I forgot to take my ibuprofen. But I was also coughing a lot. I'm going to rest now.  Really appreciate everyone's prayers. May God have mercy on us.

rough night

I didn't sleep really at all. Am coughing more again. Ankle / foot discomfort. 🙏 may God have mercy on us.

a quiet day

Today was a good day.  I didn't sleep as much during the day. Hopefully tonight.  I am enjoying a new to me mystery book... 

It's strange how you can feel thankful blessed and sad at the same time.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.  May God have mercy on us.

I slept 🥳

I slept! Now I understand how depleted and sick I really am.  Because I am coughing a lot and am flu-levels fatigued, when all you can do is sleep.

I am very grateful.

I see this as a learning opportunity, how to take care of yourself when your body needs a LOT of TLC.

May God have mercy on us!

Sleep A Blessed Thing

I only had 4 hours sleep last night, But I had some naps which were great.  I can't believe my good fortune in having the help I have. I can actually just rest.  It's like I am Katherine Wentworth when she has rest after many years of exhaustion.  I am physically still very tired, coughing a lot, and such.  

I pray that I can sleep tonight.

This song is beautiful, no words but the music speaks of wonder, beauty. 

This song is also lovely.

I am very tired but thankful. 

May God have mercy on us.

no pneumonia only bronchitis 🥳🥳🥳🥳

Good news. I don't have pneumonia, only bronchitis!!!

Today was a good day but long. The person who had advised me to do the lung x-ray failed to give me a script and I didn't realize the problem. So I was able to solve it but it added over an hour time at the X-ray place trying to sort it out with my virtual medical team.  I swear I had to sort them out 🤣🧐😳🤔

I had a good talk with my doctor about various ways to heal and gain strength. It was obvious to me that while I was in a month of much better health or over a month, I still got too depleted. Trying to figure all this out is really a process! 

I got this lovely pad of paper and oil pastels that I look forward to using. Today. I had to be up a lot and I'm definitely needing rest. So I'm so glad the rest of the week should God willing. Have a lot more rest in it. When I was at the place for the X-ray I was literally falling asleep in my chair waiting! 

I have so many blessings in my life and I'm so very grateful! 

May God have mercy on us. 

will try for x-ray again

I wrote (to my Romanian BF in Romania) about 4:30 AM the following (since she is in Bucharest time zone) ~ I am getting worse. I think the lady who is coming needs to take me for an x-ray. I get like post nasal drip and then it's like I am gasping for air and coughing. I have a video consult with my GP at 2:30. I can get the x-ray in the morning.  ~ just woke up and wrote ~ I slept more 🥰 Will do X-Ray. (Husband) filled my water bottle 1/3 full so not too heavy. I kept it on my chest like a compress, kept me warm too 🩷

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We met with a lovely lady who we hired to help me.  We are very blessed to have this option.  

Please pray that I can get an x-ray with not too much trouble or wait.  I will call FIRST to be sure they have tech. 🙏🩷🕯️

I SLEPT which is huge other than that times I coughed like that.  I am really grateful.

This SONG is my wakeup alarm and it's very GOOD!

May God have mercy on us!

prayer cards

I love the prayer cards addition 🩷🥰🙏🕯️

Sunday finally my coffee table is organized

Well, I have a video appointment with my GP tomorrow afternoon.  My cough is not as bad but it's not great.   I am struggling with some worries about it.  I think I am overtired, which is indeed the case.  

I got some oil pastels and paper. 

I am really glad for the song "it's OK" because it's so deeply mothering and comforting. 

As you see I finally managed to get my cloth bin out.  I had this on the bed when I had my 2017 foot fracture.  It's so helpful because it keeps everything neat.  I feel so much better because things are not so messy.

I got a card from my local church which was really nice.  My Husband went around with the card at church ☺️☺️☺️

I really hope I sleep ok.  That would be great.  

I hope God comforts your heart and blesses you!

May God have mercy on us!

a beautiful perspective on being an artist

Did you know I go on "kicks" where I have fun deeply looking into something or someone?

So I can't do much right now, obviously.  So I watched this ~ 

"NBC4 interview with Nightbirde in June 2021" on YouTube HERE and her words about artists giving to the world instead of receiving really struck me.  She did a great interview.  Reminded me of a classmate I knew growing up who was always very kind to everyone.

I love her music.  I am also very eclectic in my music.  God started giving me music to listen to when I was very ill, I am so grateful.

May God have mercy on us all 🩷🙏

A lovely pizza Christmas party

By God's mercy we had a LOVELY time with god-family ☺️🍕

My biggest prayer request is just that I can sleep at night.  

They gave me a tin of tea 🫖 that I really love! I can't have any caffeine until my lungs and sleep are better.  So this is going to be my celebration tea for when I have recovered 🥰

I am so glad that I can walk around the house! It's super cold now, 6° f!  So it's not safe for me to be out at all with my illnesses. My husband however is at vesper's and I'm very glad for that. 

My goddaughter's daughter said that our house is fancy which was really cute! I think it's because we can have breakable things and because I love color! That's what one of my future. Soon to be God willing baptized God's sons said about our house that it has so much color.  

I am so grateful for all the blessings! 

I am on a nightbirde swing and this one, it's so beautiful and such a blessing, do listen!

May God have mercy on us! 

God's ways

We went to the x-ray place as we were told they would be able to help.  Nope.  No tech there.  

I don't mind.  

I don't fit what other people think I should do but I already know antibiotics and steroids are not happening.

So I will rest a lot and do simple things like ginger tea.

I FINALLY slept.  I hope I can continue to sleep. Then my body has a chance to heal.