Thoughts of God can show us how to live

I have been thinking a lot about the concepts of

self-worth / self-esteem / self confidence

and

God / humility / the image of God in us.

I have not yet come to a conclusive answer;

however, here are my thoughts thus far.

God made us and

everything that is good come from God (as St. James says).

God gave us abilities; we are not to deny them.

Despair tells us we are no good, that there is no hope, no future, nothing for us.

So humility cannot mean the denial of hope, future

or that we are somehow worthless,

no good nothings

as would be said in some unknown hillbilly type place.

How to learn to acknowledge that we have good in us and that the good is from God.

Sometimes I get tired of my North American culture

and how tied I am to this culture.

A culture that can be naval-gazing and tripped up on too much introspection.

But that is where I am and

this is where God has placed me to work out my salvation.

I know more of the answers that I need to incorporate into this situation.

The basics:

1. Memory of God.

Mindfulness of God. Remembering what God has done for us.

Remembering to Praise God.

Becoming Deeply Thankful.

2. Practice the virtues as you know them

as in where you are at.

Kill self-pity. Forsake pride.

Love as best you can

and ask for God's mercy and help.

And remember the Lilies of the field.

I think I was so surprised about others loving my pictures of flowers

because I know that I am merely showing the beauty

that is already there.

(I do acknowledge though that God has given me

what others call an eye for these things).

Do not worry, your Father Knows.

I feel suprisingly encouraged

So it has been a bit of a rough go.

Unemployment and unknown future -

they are hard for me to deal with at times.

Sometimes "at times" feels like "all the time."

However,

I have learned something again today,

even in the past hour of today.

First, people care about me.

Just wanted to mention the obvious that I sometimes forget.

Thank you to those in the blog world

who also remind me of this

on a regular basis.

Second, I just did a cover letter and job application.

I submitted it.

Whew.

And you know what?

I really learned a lot in my last job.

It was a rough go and losing it was really painful.

But as I was writing my experiences

for an online form,

I remembered what I did

and how I loved it.

Stressful sometimes, but on the other hand,

I really loved everything I did.

I love being a librarian.

I would really like to be a librarian again.