It's like OK just so you know

 

I can't explain only show what is going on by how I write. 

Yes, I have Complex PTSD but God works in everything.

I am way better and my Husband can tell the difference, 

even though I am not sleeping.

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Here's things I am learning about myself and how I have to do 

things differently than others.

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1. When I am triggered it means that is a lot going on in my brain at once.

I can like suddenly be thinking about 3 to 5 things at once 

2. My type of Neurodivergence means that I am more like a child inside.

And I am more that way after the trauma I endured.

I am changed forever I think that way. 

3. I and others I know, including adults older than me, pray with their bodies.

They sway when they are praying in church or rock a bit.

When I got tons going on in my brain, I have to move to stay stable. 

I am like this book:

A Saint’s Guide to Praying with Your Feet

blurb:

 

by Amber Rose Prather, illustrated by Clare Freeman

"Elizabeth has a problem: She wants to pray in church more than anything, but every time she tries to pray, her feet start tapping. How can she pray if she can’t stay still? When a dragon appears on the monastery’s land and the only solution is prayer, Elizabeth worries even more. She turns to the abbess and the saints for help. Through their guidance and intercession, Elizabeth learns that our whole bodies have a place in prayer, and sometimes our spiritual weaknesses can be a gift that God uses for great good. This wonderfully fun story, illustrated to capture the hearts of busy children, was inspired by the life of the sixth-century saint, Elizabeth the Wonderworker." 

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Even the main character in is named Elizabeth LOL! 

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LIke HI. Welcome to the world of Elizabeth. 

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I am so getting this book!

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So when I got tons going on in my brain and words are just POURING out

into pages and pages for my writing project,

I have to move in between writing.

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It seriously helps me stay stable and happy.

But it will look strange, 

I am like moving to Transfomers music in the middle of the night.

and so happy. 

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Anyway, that's how it is.

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I am having a good day. 

I am going to our local library soon to do work!!!

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May God have mercy on us!