everything is so beautiful and tragic and amazing

I love my fast music and I really need to Dance because it's the only way to deal with the pain of life until I am able to cry again.

Mental illness? Yes and no.  It's because I see that someone I love has been really hurt and then my prayers become movement until I am allowed to cry again.

Then I am given music like this 

But it means the same thing.  You see some things that you are really worried about and your Mother's heart is breaking and you keep asking God ....

I will do ANYTHING to save that person no matter the cost, the humiliation, the pain.  You would say if you could, send me to hell because the person you are worried about is dying to save you and me and oh God have mercy.

My music all says that.  The hyper and the lament and most of it is Transformers music and it's so holy to me that I thank God for it 

It I didn't have my dance music my life would be so much harder. 

But God is SO AMAZING.  just look around at all the beautiful people and now have prayer and supplication because sometimes you have to dance and sometimes you have to weep for the salvation of the world.