Thoughts on this Brightest of Wednesdays

Today (old calendar) is the

Feast of the Annunciation.

Bright Wednesday

and

the Feasts that signifies the beginning of our salvation.

A friend of one of my dear friends was in town

and prayed with us in church.

A very special day, for which I am so thankful for.

I have been thinking about what it means to grow up;

I am 33 now; some think this is young, some not as young.

All I know is that I need to continue to grow up.

It is confusing - what does it mean to be an adult,

what does it mean to be single and a professional and female?

I see all around me so many of my friends married,

bearing children; to them this is what growing up means,

becoming a Mother.

But what does it mean to grow up

as a single professional female with a masters

(library science for me)

who will, Lord willing, be a working professional.

Who may or may not marry,

who may or may not have children.

What does it mean to learn to leave home

to not cleave to one's parents

but still have no husband to go to?

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I am slowly learning how to navigate this,

but the road is not easy,

straightforward or

clear cut.

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I would love to hear your thoughts on what you feel it means

to mature into adulthood,

in whatever situation life has given you.

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Blessed Bright Week to all!

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Christ is Risen! Indeed He is Risen!!!

Walking Along Life's Path

From a walk near my apartment

I read a great poem

by Madeline L' Engle

yesterday.

The poem spoke of an actor

suddenly in a play

not written by herself;

totally disoriented

the actor learns that

growing up

is learning to play a part in a drama

that someone else is writing.

(I would post the poem, but believe it is still under copyright).

I am being challenged to grow, indeed,

to grow up

in ways I did not see coming.

(Perhaps I should of seen it, but that is a moot point).

I am seeing that I have to be willing to change,

to grow,

without promise of the outcome,

without knowing what my future will be.

All I know is that I have to participate in this change

and wow, can it be hard to do.

Lord have mercy.

Prayers appreciated.