The dinner party was really lovely.
5 of us and such dear friends.
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I can tell that I am healing because not only am I able to write more here,
but I told my close friends a bit about what happened to me
and it did not make me anxious to do so.
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If you are in Stage 1 PTSD (the worst) you can't revisit the trauma
deeply right away because it can just retraumatize you.
I know this both a person who is a professional librarian who has
done a lot of research on this sort of thing,
but also by very distinct, direct experience.
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This dinner party was maybe the first where I felt like myself again,
the self that does dinner parties well, is organized and creates beauty.
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I am still regaining in ways but the point is I am getting better.
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When I don't sleep as well I also don't have the same bandwidth.
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I am very thankful.
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I am still not sleeping as well but this is just part of life for me,
and frankly for a lot of people.
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But I am so greatful for my life and for this special Christmas
Fast Free Friday dinner!
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Christ is born! Glorify Him!
2 comments:
oh, my dear, i am so happy for you. i know myself what a long road it can be back from PTSD. you are doing remarkably well. to feel like yourself again is wonderful.
your dinner party looks amazing. your home is so warm and welcoming. joyful prayers of thanksgiving for you! 🙏🏼 (p.s. icon envy abounds.)
What a beautiful setting for what sounds like a splendid party. Merry, merry Christmas! It's a great gift to have friends like that, to celebrate with, and who can be trusted to hear our sorrows and joys. Glory to God for feeling "oneself" again. That is the best Christmas gift I can think of.
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