Something I used to do well was rest

 

After lunch I felt quite tired.

And so I rested.

Then I took stock of the situation.

Which is this.

I am still dealing with a respiratory infection and I want to avoid

antibotics since I am allergic and they cause a rash.

Well.  God wants me to be at peace, have faith and trust

and this is a gentle way to learn it.

Think of all the dire things that could be happening to me,

this is quite a different situaiton. 

So I decided to do what I used to be very good at, 

which was resting when I was ill. 

Various reasons I fell out of the habit.

My Husband for one, and being a wife and having

things to do, but also a love I have myself of being busy and

having things to do.

And so, I need to step back and have faith.

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For the rest of the week, I am going to try to really

treat myself as if I am sick; 

I am going to try only sick peron's hot ginger tea and

other teas, am going to have soup and try to rest

physically, mentally and spiritually.

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I am still going to make meals on days my Husband is home,

that will not be difficult with rest, since

I have been doing it without.

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If I am better than I am now by the end of the week,

then the rest will have done it's job.

If not, then I will go to see a doctor, mine if possible.

And if I have to take antibiotics then I am just going to trust God about it.

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I have a lot of post nasal drip and congestion but have been 

about to keep a serious infection at bay.

So we shall see.

I don't really know what we got in the first place,

but I know that I have times that I get so physically depleted and that's when

I get sick but also when things can get from bad to worse quickly.

But I am determined to try to mend that.

Anyway, 

it feels good to write about it.

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I have so much to be thankful for.

It is very rare that a person today can just decide to rest like I am

and I know that; I remember my working days;

or when things were quite difficult for me and I did not know

if I would run out of money or not.

I did actually but God provided and then God gave me a job

and then more work and then more work and by this time

I was dating my Husband and God gave me work until a month before my wedding and I could

have worked even more, but I was moving from Canada to the States and with the wedding and 

everything, I ended work on my terms and it was a true blessing until the end. 

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I had a lot of adjustments to make after I was married;

I was homesick for Ottawa, especially in the first months

when I was a bit lost at sea, and then got mono;

even then, I was learning that I had to rest.

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I am just so blessed that I can do it.

Not everyone is in such a position.

I have much to be thankful for!