Christmas in the home...

Christmas has come to our home ❤️☃️🎄🥰....

I ended up staying home this morning... Throat/ears.  I see my doctor and ENT this week.

My Husband picked up fish curry....

I listened to liturgy online...

It was good.

May God have mercy.

❤️🙏🕯️🎄❤️🙏❤️

A Week of Thanksgiving

 

I am still here and fighting!

Had a good Thanksgiving, 

I am down to taking advil cold and sinus once/day.

Both ears have had some trouble.

I see an ENT Tuesday.

Next week is going to be incredibly busy;

appointments, two liturgies, and more.

I am thankful.

I have not had caffeine, am sleeping better; 

I still think I can have caffeine but if I get triggered 

(which happened around November 15th-ish) I have to go off it.

But I may have to have much less of it.

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I've been sleeping in the recliner since Monday!

I am trying to change lots of little things to improve my life

and figuring out other things as well. 

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Like every Autmn of the last few years, I get really sick.

How can I change that? 

What can be changed and what is out of my

control?  I am still figuring that out. 

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God help us.

We need His mercy every moment... 

A Wednesday at home

A quiet day.  My ear symptoms wax and wane.  I hope I can sleep again tonight.

We watched Sound of Music.

I feel pretty overwhelmed in many ways. 

May God help us 🙏

the latest ~ beauty is everywhere

 

Good news: I slept last night!

Sometimes I don't sleep well the next night so taking it a day at a time.

Kinda not fun news:

 1. I forgot that when I have really bad insomnia I can't do the following:

2. Have any caffeinated tea 😢🫖

I have to wait until I'm better. This is actually hard for me because I have a lot of tea with caffeine that I really love and I love being able to choose whatever I want. It's really fun that way, so I have to adjust. Of course. I'm also on a battle plan for getting more decaf tea in the future however. 

I'm definitely resting today but also doing a few Christmas presents! It's already that time of year! I did a lot of my shopping in July when I was in Canada.

I remember July and in ways I was still ill because of PTSD... But I can also see that God was present with me and helped me accomplish things according to His will.  

I know one thing: when you get a good night's sleep you feel very different than when you've had very little. It's like you suddenly are calm again.  But I'm also very tired and one of the things I'm learning once again is how to pace myself better. 

My ear seems to be a bit better but I'm also taking that a day at a time... I can tell I'm very physically depleted.  I'm doing my best to figure out how to heal and support myself in this.

For all of this, I am grateful.  May God have mercy on us!

the saga continues but so does Thanksgiving

The nurse practitioner felt that my ears are okay. Other than that there's fluid in my left ear. She didn't see signs of infection. However, my doctor has referred me to an ENT. I'm now having pain even just looking down a little bit. You know like to get something from a table. I'm sleeping I hope in my husband's recliner at his wise suggestion because my head can be even higher. And it's more comfortable. Even within all of this I have so much to be thankful for. I have a husband who cares about me. I don't have the pressure of an outside job to do. I've definitely been struggling this week which is clear and the one thing I'm thank God seeing is that I just need to rest. The rest of whatever I need to do will come as it's supposed to. 

I feel a little discouraged perhaps because I was doing a lot better but healing is like that. Especially with the type of illness complex PTSD that I have. It's even in the literature that the healing isn't straightforward! 

I had an early dinner before the 5:00 p.m. appointment. I'm grateful for so many blessings. 

I'm trying to remember to be thankful because it truly changes you and your mind. I've been reading about that even in Instagram psych pages about Hope and Thanksgiving. And I have all the reason for both because I know that our Lord Jesus loves us died for us and is right here with us. 

I'm also so blessed because I'm not sick like some. Everyone has the cross in life according to God's wisdom. 

Thank you again, everyone who has been praying for me leaving comments and just reading! 

May God have mercy on all of us.

Praise is how we denounce darkness and bring in LIGHT and BEAUTY

As written on social media just a bit ago:

Ok. It's 5 AM. I did get some sleep. Maybe 3+ hours? I really love this song.

Folks, I got fluid in my left ear now. My doctor had recommended using saline drops in my nose (taken when lying down) to try to get it to my ear canel which was supposed to make open again but I am wondering if the fluid got trapped there instead.

I ordered garlic oil, it comes tomorrow. I don't have FB on my phone so I did not get the comment about that until later (I was out a lot of yesterday).

In 12 hours I will be DV (Lord willing) in NYC seeing a Nurse Practiionar in person. Please pray for that.

My beloved Husband and I are staying local today for church as we need the rest (far away church 1 hr plus drive 1 way). Whereever God brings us, there we are; moment by moment.

I have been LOVING this song since I heard it some months ago. Music is not just poetry, it's PRAYER. This one is very powerful.

Please pray for me and I thank God for your prayers!

Here's the lyrics:

Take my life and let it be

My soul devoted Lord to Thee

Take my moments and all my days

Make them endless praise

Take my heart and let it move

In spirit and in truth

For the glory of Your name

With every breath that's in me

With every song and melody

Let it be a hallelujah

In every breaking moment

In every blessing that You give

Let it be a hallelujah

Oh Lord, let it be a hallelujah

All my hopes and all my fears

Every trial, every tear

In the chaos, You remain

Faithful all the way

Through the victories

Through the scars

Let me echo who You are

For the glory of Your name

With every breath that's in me

With every song and melody

Let it be a hallelujah

In every breaking moment

In every blessing that You give

Oh, let it be a hallelujah

Oh, Lord, let it be a hallelujah

Oh, let it be a hallelujah

Let it be a hallelujah

Nothing, but a hallelujah to You, God, yeah

Let it be a hallelujah

All my life, a hallelujah

Let it be a hallelujah to You, God

With every breath that's in me

With every song and melody

Let it be, let it be, oh

In every breaking moment

In every blessing that You give, oh

Let it be a hallelujah

Oh, I pray

Oh, let it be a hallelujah, ohh

Oh, let it be a hallelujah

All my life a hallelujah to You, God

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Jonas Myrin / Michael James Ryan Busbee / Lauren Daigle

Let It Be A Hallelujah lyrics © Centricsongs, Capitol Cmg Paragon, Son Of The Lion, Three Little Ladies Publishing, See You At The Pub

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My Husband made me a chicken burger last night. 

He was singing 

Ode to Joy by Beethoven in German yetersday

my heart soared with happiness, 

for I sensed his happiness. 

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I ordered some books, two CUTE jackets, some pens (they were cheap but 

I can see why, they are too small in ways, maybe good for kids?) and 

I bought a light PINK purse backpack thing that I am saving for SPRING

PASCHA time because sometimes it's good to do things ahead of time so that

you have something tangible you are going towards. 

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Considering that I bought my Christmas gifts (most of them) in JULY

at the Greek Monastery in QUEBEC, 

I think it's fair to say that I can Plan In Advance, LOL. 

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I started a new tiny writing project as a form of 

Art Therapy for me

and I am really loving it. 

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My big project I am always working on,

it runs in the background of my mind like basically 

All The Time. 

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I got some great books to read. 

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The cute white box was for my goddaughter's wedding that

I was too sick to be at. 

I hired a lovely young man to assemble it from church!

He did it in like I don't know, 5 or 10 minutes?

I was like OK, you are very high in that sort of intelligence! 

Of course the payment of 20 dollars when you are a kid is 

good incentive LOL! :)

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I really don't like how my ear is feeling. 

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Lord help us, save us and may I please NOT 

lost my hearing in either EAR. 

Amen!!! LORD HELP! 

Hear us and have mercy!