I nearly have all the Christmas cards done.
Somehow not all that I had in my 'address book' got printed
so it was extra work.
We are slowly on the mend.
I am amazed at how much change and loss there is in life.
I think when I was younger I had no idea that life is like this.
Today I finally got the kitchen counter and island clean;
my Husband helped.
I did not get a walk today outside because getting things clean
was more important and I did not have time for both.
I think a lot of us struggle to keep the house tidy.
Dishwashers are great, but then they are full of clean dishes,
dirty ones pile up because your attention is on another project...
I finally folded a huge mountain of laundry that had been piling up for two weeks.
It's crazy how I don't even have kids but the questions of
what do I cook for dinner,
what are we eating next week,
trying to not feel buried by housework,
wishing it was easier but nothing in my life lends to a routine,
as if my life could be clockwork...
life just is not that way and sometimes the very fact
discourages me.
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To remember how far I have come,
to see that gains are truly being made,
are hard to keep in mind because so much else is always
changing, one is confronted with losses unexpected
and the grief of them comes at times and you can't avoid it;
I actually got to call my Grandma today.
It's not the same type of conversation though because her
hearing is worse so it's hard to have a two way conversation on the phone.
But still, she is an example to me of trying to always be thankful,
even though things are not the same.
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As one ages things are harder, one gets more tired
more easily and being thankful becomes all the more important...
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I don't know why exactly but I just keep feeling I need to
get everything about Christmas done early;
maybe because a year ago we were blindsided by some
unexpected things.
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how much we need the Lord,
His forgiveness and constant help.
***
May God help us...save us... comfort us...
2 comments:
I envy you, the way you have your Christmas cards almost done! I love sending and receiving cards but have not been able to keep doing that thing. I just have to accept that certain things have to be "pruned" off like branches, as I become more limited in energy and strength. Of course, writing the cards is light work, but I take more time doing the heavier work nowadays.
I suppose we all try to do what we feel we need to do but it isn't always easy.
I hope you take it easy and don't overdo. I can identify with your Grandmother. I also am slowly losing my hearing.
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