Young Samuel

The boy who I wrote of, and prayed for, along with many others, died last weekend. He is buried in the cemetery next to the elementary school I went to; the funeral home I have been too more than once; the church I grew up in is where is funeral was.

How bitter a sorrow this is; 3 siblings, parents; they lost their youngest son and brother.

Pray for them; he had only been sick a month and just a literal few days before his 6th birthday, God took him home… and pray for young Samuel; Memory Eternal.

thoughts written from/on my kitchen table

I wrote the comment below on Stacy’s blog (http://theloveofgodismadness.blogspot.com/) …

It is a challenge; sometimes I think that if one does not find their mate in school, or if they do not show up at church, it is really hard to find one at all… I seem to have three distinct groups of friends:

Christians who are single and are not dating (I only know of one friend who may be going into the dating stage)
Christians who are married
My non-Christian friends are more diverse, but in general they have someone they consider a partner or have just broken up with one… their lives are very different in this area, as their beliefs are quite different than the Christians I know and have as my friends…

Anyway, here’s the comment:



As I sit in the quiet of the morning, in my kitchen... I am not sure what to say, but I think there is some real validity to this.

sometimes life circumstances themselves lead to this catch-22... for me I have a MLIS (a master for librarians to be librarians) and am slowly building a professional career. a lot of my goals are happening: I have the apartment now, the cutest Cat Cleo, am living in the city I desired, going to the orthodox church that is my home, ...

and I know, at least at church, according to my friends there, I appear home-like, as in apple crumble or Neapolitan ice cream. I love to cook, love home stuff, but...

I still have found no one to marry etc. so I guess the one thing that I am not sure about is the softness issue;

I think a lot of it also has to do with what one wants; what is non-negotiable...

for me I would need a faithful orthodox Christian, one who reads, thinks and is intelligent. and education and job actually may be an issue. I find it a really strange thing to think that I would be making more than my potential husband. esp. when I would not want to feel that I have no choice but to work FT... or work at all, when the potential kids were young.

it creates real challenges.

the other challenge is that as those who are SWANS who have made a place for themselves and who are passing or have passed their 20's and may not want to move and start a new life somewhere else... (location seems to be an issue, the more non-negotiables, the less people in an area who would match/fit...)

I would be interested in reading the book about this that was mentioned in the end of the article...

Lots going on but nothing to say

That is how I feel I guess. I think of things to write, but not when I have time to write them.

I will write about this though…

I am praying for a little almost 6 year old boy Samuel from MI, a family I have not met, but who live behind my grandma’s house and go to my parents’ church. He has leukaemia and an infection from a bone marrow surgery was taking over…

We had a moleben for St. Nektarious and I asked for his prayers for Samuel later that night as I found out after the service about him from my mother. Today I heard that his fever broke…

I am praying more often for Nadia as well, who suffers greatly from cancer, now…

St. Nektarious, pray to God for us…

The latest

Well. In a lot of ways, not much new to report. I need to start applying again for jobs, my house is slowly (very slowly it feels) gaining order. There has been so much unpacking to do!

I am very happy to be in my little church; it is still a miracle, being there, seeing my spiritual father, being somewhere more stable.

I struggle with feeling unstable though with only having the contract I have not until the end of January. I just have to trust God with all of this…

I am still really happy with my apartment and I still love my cat Cleo lots!

I have been reading the Psalms and other things, and this, along with church, give me the sustenance that I need to keep on going…

In Ottawa

Well. Today I found a table at the side of the road! A little one, that goes just right beside my oven in my very cool but still very messy kitchen!

I have been tired still, but am on the mend. May I say that I love my apartment. It practically pains me to leave it for work, I love the quietness of it…

I have been reading (began again, from the beginning) PD James’ autobiography _time to be in earnest_ and have really been enjoying it. I really appreciate her writing.

Well. I have been home since about 1.30 today and it is almost time for vespers. I was hoping to do more in my house, but have gotten some things done, and that is good… I am already looking forward to next weekend though; this Saturday there was a morning liturgy that I went to; I really just want a full day at home…