Autumn Beauty

 

I have endured one of the worst storms in my personal life over the last two years!  I think the dust is settling now.  I was so sick and unwell.  I am not going to write more about that, other than to thank God for His mercy in pulling me out of such great suffering.  It was a time that taught me a lot but now I hope to just get on with life and it's many challenges.  I am getting older, life gets harder in ways for sure because old age prepares us for Heaven and leaving everything behind, in trust that God in His mercy will receive us because we looked for His mercy in our lives.  

I don't think I will have time to regularly blog, it does not work on my phone with pictures and my life is very busy now.  But I am glad to be here at the moment and will return when I can.  God help us bear the sorrows of life and bring us to the rest in Christ that everyone so deeply desires, even if they do not realize what it is that they actual want.  

still here

Blogger still does not work on my phone for pictures.  I am hoping to do something better but am pretty busy trying to keep up with life.

My Grandma said a beautiful thing to me on the phone today:

"Prayer changes things, sometimes we have to wait."

bright Thursday

I still can't load pictures here from my phone. 

I am ok. 

I just had a very hard loss.  I found out that in Ottawa, where I lived before I was married, that a very kind man, my Ukrainian Mother’s Husband, died.  Once family always family. He was so warm gentle steady simple and unassuming.  I have been crying a lot is all I can really say about this loss.

At least I can cry.

Other than this, I am doing what I can to heal from the most difficult health crisis of my adult life.   I am doing a better but the new loss I have endured has me thrown for a loop.

I take long walks. I still have my therapist who I talk to. 

I know I am not here much. It just the way it is.  V who commented if you are the one I met 2 summers ago in MI at my beloved Monastery please feel free to email me. See the about me page. 

Other than that I have a lot to be thankful for.  I am just in a time of grief and of healing.  

test (will be removed later)

waking up to birdsong

I can't get blogger to load pictures correctly on my phone. I don't have time to do more so just here briefly. 

It's been a year yesterday that I lost my memory. 

God is bringing comfort in increments. 

Healing takes time. 

I go on walks most everyday. I am very fortunate to have therapy. Fr Thomas Hopko in his 55 maxims: 

"Get help when you need it, without fear or shame."

It is wonderful to wake up and hear the birds sing.  It is wonderful to wake up and know where one is and feel warm and safe in one's own home. 

Lord have mercy on those who do not have this great gift. 

Today

I had to save this picture via the snapseed app for Blogger to put the picture right side up. 

Beautiful icons that bless my home 🥰

I am working on more healing 🙏 and am in a better place than I was a couple of months ago. But you know, healing on a deep level, that takes the rest of one’s life. 

We have DV our house blessing soon. A year ago I was in the midst of my memory loss. So this year I hope is a year of healing as I process where I was a year ago. 

May God so grant.  🙏