When All Feels Urgent

 

My main just keeps racing.

NJ news, not so great -- the virus.

I go to NYC tomorrow by PATH train

(with N95 mask...gloves...etc)

I have goals:

~Trader Joes

~Art supplies for stickers for niece 

~Journal buying? if have time

~Tea and Sympathy by noon 

~East side of Manhattan by 1:30,

grabbing my library books before I cab back to the 

PATH train to go home.

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It feels very much like trying to get everything done before a trip

a very long trip perhaps.... 

While I had hoped to return again one more time Nov 2nd to NYC 

I will have to see how things are when we get there. 

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My friend Photini got back safe to NJ from overseas.

Have you heard of the idea of a C-19 Circle?

A few friends who are being careful and not mingling much with others

but who visit each other.

I am hoping that Photini can do that with us; 

I feel like I am scrambling to get everything in place for

the unknown virus-winter months.

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So. We stayed local today, for church; it as a relief;

we needed the rest.

Church was lovely; then home, eating, a much needed nap,

then puttering and reading and we took a long slow walk

in beautiful sunshine and then dinner

and quiet and prayers and I've been reading more of

_She Died a Lady_ which so far I am finding really well written,

I am still in the first section of it;

and my mind has been spinning, spinning, spinning.

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But. It is quiet now.

I am slowly getting to emails. Slowly.

My dishwasher is running.

I have a shelf of library books to the right of the table

where my chromebook is, where I am typing.

If I think of these books, it's like I have a comforting

beautiful candle glowing right next to me,

just waiting for me to turn to look at it. 

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It's wonderful to be in church.

I just have to hold on to the present; 

I know; I forget; my mind spins; it is reeled in again...

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I must seek quiet...

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Lord have mercy on us!

May God help us with our various and often

very heavy burdens!

May Christ be with us, beside, in front, behind;

as the prayer to the Holy Spirit goes...

Comforter, everywhere present and filling all things...

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May the Lord have mercy you, on all of us.