Waiting

i am very encouraged by all the prayers that many have prayed for me RE: job finding. i think the Friday interview went well. i am supposed to find out by mid-week. i have another interview this Friday at 8:30 AM and am hoping to cancel it because i was offered the other job... but God knows and i am seeking His mercy.

FYI - my Internet at home has been down so my blog-reading is behind... sigh.

wishing good things for all reading this...

oh to learn peace!

this week has been a battle to stay at peace - job interview friday - another thing today - my job ending in 2 weeks - the unknown.

yet to God all is known and i need to rest in this and in the truth of God's care for me.

i am glad to be in the church; i can see that acquiring peace is something one must battle for, and perhaps for a very long time. but at least i am in a place where i know i am safe to battle within...

quietness

i am dwelling in quietness this evening. preparing slowly for the interview but trying to be really careful to not do too much and get my nerves up. i have been re-reading an Anne George mystery about two older Southern sisters. ah. i LOVE mysteries. my Cat wanted to eat my Popcorn. yep. so i gave her cat treats, which she devoured. then she looked and looked at me. ah that silent begging. i told her no popcorn. she seems content.

the line from the Protestant hymn came to mind: praise God from whom all blessings flow...

Amen.

this is one of the best posts i have read regarding V-Tech

http://theorthodorkcafe.blogspot.com/2007/04/blame-game.html

thank you Fr. John.

thankful

i strive to be thankful while being overwhelmed. i struggle to not be afraid and then i read how Christ tells His disciples not to fear and brings their boat into the harbour they were heading towards.

in my small but astoundingly loved by God life, i have been granted the friday interview (in a week) for a job i would love. i found out last night i also have a test to see if i will get an interview for another job that i may love too. (though my vote is with the first one). this test is thursday afternoon, my interview friday afternoon. two weeks ago was holy week. one week ago i had a raging head cold. domestically my house is in chaos.

but God is good and abundantly merciful. i am very grateful to those who are praying for me. i know i would of never gotten as far as i have without the prayers of many.

Thanks be to God...

trust you understand...

i read all these great blog posts today, as a break in between resume and cover letter editing. i did not have time to comment on them, so please take this as the comment (if i comment on your blog in general then i have read your latest post, thanks to bloglines).

God is blessing me so much with support from my family and friends - a church family local and universal. May God be praised for His abundant goodness.

the job saga begins - updated!

thanks for the prayers thus far; very appreciated; i called the would-be-new-boss and got some more information (and of course thought of another question to ask after the fact). the interviews are going to start before the deadline! i hope to get my resume and cover letter in by tomorrow if i can -

need prayers for this for sure - so i can at least get an interview...

hope everyone is doing well. it is sunny today in Ottawa!

UPDATE:

received this email tonight:

Please advise if you are interested and available for a job interview next Thursday, April 26 or Friday, April 27 and what time(s). I am interviewing some local applicants...

So i apparently i have an interview! i have not even submitted my resume yet! (she knows my boss...)

wow.

also significantly: i held a child in my arms tonight. Young John Samuel. i was so blessed tonight. deeply, richly blessed.

procrastination

okay. i hung out with Cleo my Cat. i had my ice cream. i read my blogs. commented. now i have to work on my resume!

there is a job i would REALLY REALLY like that's application is due May 2nd. Prayers welcome... esp. as my job ends May 10th.

okay... no more blogs elizabeth, work on your resume!

thought

this (i think i read it in CS Lewis' work) has been in my mind this week, hard as it is for me to do:

possess my soul in patience.

once again, a life time project, this.

all i can say is

that I am striving to be and am thankful. thankful that I tried to learn the French word for Kleenex today - mouchoirs (I forget how to pronounce it already!) - I said it to everyone at work, holding my Kleenex box - I literally went through oh, a box within 3 hours or so. when I do anything, I like to do it well! :)

I am surprisingly happy - happy that my parents are alive (not that they were in danger) - happy that Cleo my Cat is running around - happy that I know how to have a cold in style as it were (think mint tea, nutrigrain bars, the best Kleenex can offer me, no-name VICKS). its great! I even got an Agatha Christie book I may not have read before from the library... and new socks. (handy, having stores on my walk home).

I talked for a good while with my friend Asheya out West and heard her son in the background - a beautiful 15 month old boy!

and I head Pascha songs via ancient faith radio at work.

I am very grateful for a good day, even though, as Madeleine L 'Engle wrote in one of her books, my cold "flourishes".

I am grateful for the time to be quiet and to have to deliberately have to rest. God is good and I so undeserving but yet seeing His mercy.

Staying In

Today I decided to stay home and rest. I have no sick days at my work, so it was not a light decision – as I will lose money and only have till May 10 of work at this point. And yesterday I went to work – nose dripping and other head cold things – I was so tired it was hard to concentrate. So today I decided, in the early morning hours, to stay home. I called in sick and went back to bed. Years ago Cheryl told me how taking a nap can be an act of faith, when in school and overburdened with work. I guess I view this day like this as well.

So I am being quiet, drinking juice (almost out of it though), tea (I have tons of tea) and cold and flu drink (have to take some yet today). The cold is in my ears now but I am thankful for a day to rest.

I love my apartment, I love seeing the wet snow falling outside my window and having Cleo my cat near by. (We’ll just ignore the fact that there should not be wet snow in mid-April!).

I also love that I have many of my favourite books with me, and that things are momentarily okay. Life has lots of challenges, and is full of grief, but God’s love keeps pouring down, slowly breaking into my awareness; this gives me hope.

After Pascha Cold Is Nothing...

The cold hit me last night; used a box of Kleenex already. But I am trying to take it in good humour – too bad my Cat Cleo will not help out around the house while I drink tea and read books (the sure cure). : )

One of my friends who I do not know well, but met at my London Orthodox Church, emailed me the other day to tell me that her father had died unexpectedly. Please pray for her, her family and father.

And so I am grateful for all I have – head cold – big deal! That I can call home and talking my parents – what a gift.

Hope everyone is recovering peacefully from Pascha.