The dinner party was really lovely.
5 of us and such dear friends.
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I can tell that I am healing because not only am I able to write more here,
but I told my close friends a bit about what happened to me
and it did not make me anxious to do so.
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If you are in Stage 1 PTSD (the worst) you can't revisit the trauma
deeply right away because it can just retraumatize you.
I know this both a person who is a professional librarian who has
done a lot of research on this sort of thing,
but also by very distinct, direct experience.
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This dinner party was maybe the first where I felt like myself again,
the self that does dinner parties well, is organized and creates beauty.
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I am still regaining in ways but the point is I am getting better.
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When I don't sleep as well I also don't have the same bandwidth.
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I am very thankful.
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I am still not sleeping as well but this is just part of life for me,
and frankly for a lot of people.
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But I am so greatful for my life and for this special Christmas
Fast Free Friday dinner!
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Christ is born! Glorify Him!
