Tuesday Clean Up Day and A Most Beautiful Song

A lot to be thankful for about.

I was able to get Mount Laundry done.

Dishes are done!

Table is cleaned.

Coffee table organized. 

Still some things to do, but progress has been made.

I talked to my dear friend in Romania today.

That was really nice.

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I've been listening to Classic FM (from UK) on my phone for some years.

Lately they have been playing this beautiful song

I have heard it preformed live in NYC by Chanticleer 

and it is very beautiful...

I so wish for a return to life as we knew it,

or as we want to know it again,

and part of that would be being in NYC again to hear

Chanticleer at Christmas time. 

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So, I have a later (routine only) doctor's appointment

that I may be going to NYC by myself for in later August.

I am kind of excited I think.

At least for the fun parts, like eating outdoors

or doing shopping that I did not do this week

and, I hope, going to my library.

I am still having a hard time deciding WHAT exactly to take 

out from the library.

Should I take out what I know I love,

and re-read DE Stevenson books that they have?

Should I try something different? 

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I am struggling a bit with the impatience that comes

with the pandemic; seeing so many do things I wish I could do

(travel or shop or a big one *see family*)...

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And I can tell I feel sad about it.

I still don't do sad very well.

I am more aware of it.

But other than trying to dodge it, 

I am not quite good at doing things that help

that don't involve, well, buying things.

I always know I am sad when I want something.

I mean, maybe not always, but it's really pretty often for me. 

It's not that I ways give into the feeling;

but I also am pretty sure I am not alone in this particular struggle

of dealing with sadness this way.

The whole 'retail therapy' pretty much says it all.

Which is a pretty sad state of affairs but we, I am convinced,

are in a state, we hope, of progress;

dealing with our failings and struggles 

and learning better ways takes time.

And above all, I trust that God is full of mercy.

That we can be welcomed by God because

we realize we need Him; 

because we see that we are sinners

in need of healing.

Wonderful how that is.

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I pray that God will show you the way forward in your own life,

and that God will have mercy on us and save us!