I am struggling a bit more than normal I think.
I was so sick for the first 3 months of this year.
I was remembering the last weekend my Mom was here. My memory was back. I was still on prednisone. Twice I got so chilled that I was shaking uncontrollably for being so cold. It was physically exhausting. Once was on the way home. I just kept thinking about the homeless who are cold and distracted myself.
My Mom and Husband helped. I slept with layers of cloths, 4 water bottles and many blankets. Drank hot tea. It was like the cold was deep inside me and my whole body was shaking.
I am so grateful for my Husband.
He took good care of me.
It was traumatic for him too. Sometimes I didn't know who he even was.
I scared my friends and family. It was really difficult.
Well. I have been having a hard time sleeping. I think I am still in a lot of grief in ways. I have had a lot of loss.
There are good things of course abundantly.
May God have mercy on us 🙏
After being so sick for those weeks it takes a while to get back your strength. Not sleeping well makes it hard I'm sure. Your husband sounds like a gem; I'm glad he takes good care of you.
ReplyDeleteSometimes trauma can overshadow life's good things. You're doing a fabulous job of giving all your blessings, particularly your patient and loving husband, the spotlight!
ReplyDeleteDefinitely you have suffered a loss, when there are days and weeks that you have no memory of. The grief would be fatiguing. Healing takes time...
ReplyDeleteEvery body is different, I know, but there are some things I always have before going to bed, which help me to sleep. I take Vitamin D at night, and it helps. Also, B complex, and I just have a spoonful or two of nutritional yeast, which is absorbed quickly. I've got mild asthma and I can sleep better when my lungs are relaxed, so I take some guaifenesin, which puts moisture in the body. (with lots of water. and yes, I do get up in the night to the bathroom sometimes) Also, I have herb tea with lavender in it. All those things help me to fall asleep. So, I would say, take your D at night, and some quieting herbal tea. And, if I get up in the night, I may take another spoonful of yeast and sip of tea. There is a reason why you're having problems with sleep, Elizabeth, and your doctors don't seem to have the answer. Vitamin B is for stress! It feeds the nerves and lavender calms them (unless you're allergic to lavender) I hope you can figure out something like this for yourself! xo
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