It had been coming for a long time....

Anyone who is even somewhat current with what

is going on in the world,

will know that the world is very troubled.

Troubled not only with wars and such things

but our Western Christian world has been crumbling for sometime.

While I am not going to talk in specifics here,

I was confronted with ways things are,

at least for now, changing so rapidly 

that I can see how invasive the people wishing to change

things in non-Christian ways are going about it,

though the Internet, Social media, even their use of spell check

in our emails....

I wish that was not so but it is.

I wrote a normal (and spelled correctly) 

word in an email and it was shown as a spelling error. 

(Sorry I am being vague but I am too troubled about it 

and don't want the trouble that can come)....

Seeing the ways that Christians and culture we held as not only

normal but enduring is being challenged,

it was like I was shocked, finally admitting to it or seeing it morph so 

quickly that I have no idea what it is going to mean

to be a Christian in the future, at least one who holds

the Christian beliefs that have been held for over 2000 years;

and beyond that; just simple marriage (or even relationship) of a man and a woman. 

I am seeing the reality of most of the world being silenced

on official forms and in social media in quiet and loud ways.

***

We have been reading Tolkien's letters and he talks about the biggest

problem that the Elves had was trying to keep things the way they had been 

in the past and not adapting to how things were in their present lives.

Now I am not talking about that the Elves were to believe something different

but that they did not adapt; what does it mean to live, for us, in a culture

that in 40, 30, 20, 10 years changed to be something that is 

unrecognizable to so many if they stopped to think about what was

before and what is going on now.

***

And if things don't stop racing to this end, as they seem to be,

what does it mean to be a Christian in a culture and world

that is increasingly hostile to you; I had one form I saw recently

that did not even give a 'check box' to say that one is simply

a happily married woman to her husband.

What does it mean to live in a world that is seeking to silence you

while saying that it was the Christian world that silenced everything before?

***

I guess I just want to mark this day that shocked me so much;

as if everything tumbled down in one fell swoop

of seeing realities silenced, 

realities (simply of a girl and boy falling in love, of marriage, of life 

as it has been lived since the beginning...)

 that will never be silenced

but at least, for now, denied by many in our current culture.

***

Well.  I won't write about this often, I don't think, as it's not the focus of my 

blog, which is more about my daily life and how I am creating

a home and family life for myself and my Husband, 

and really how I am adapting to my life here in NJ, almost 7 years,

with my best friend and Husband.

So while I won't talk about this much, 

I think I will always have this grief 

(of the destruction of culture and lives) in my heart.

I will continue to live

my life to support what I most hold dear,

Christ, Christianity, the Church, my extended family, 

my Husband and our marriage.

And I pray that we can live out our life in peace

but above all that we will live and die as Christians.