First Wednesday of Great Lent, 2017

I had a quiet day;

a long talk with my sister-friend, so nice, it has been months.

I was really worn out today and took it easy.

I watched a cheesy Christian film,

knitted wash clothes.

Read a bit more of Laurus. 

{so ends my #lentenkal + yarn along section of this post!}

Mr. Husband took me out for Lenten Middle Eastern food,

I had lentil soup and bread.

We also ordered some for tomorrow.

I do hope to make a soup soon, but at the same time, realized

I needed some re-coop time, and Friday is going to be a busy day....

A trip to continue working on Patrick stuff, and I hope

to go to presanctified liturgy back at home, 

afterwards... if the weather holds and our schedule can happen

as we are thinking. 

And then we went to the 3rd section of the 

Canon of St. Andrew of Crete....

Below are some sections of it that really struck me tonight,

I how repentance and seeing oneself to be a sinner in great need of repentance,

that this is always in conjunction with trusting in God's mercy

and not despairing. 

My Ottawa spiritual father once told me that I needed to keep at an

exact 50/50 balance the fact that

I am a sinner and that God loves me.

I find that the canon has the same balance,

and that it is a very deep text, 

as in we can think we are a sinner worthy of hell

but at the same moment, we do not despair of God's mercy.

And that was Wednesday of the first week of Lent.

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I do hope to get a more active routine for Lent yet,

but today I just had to do a lot of resting... 

I am weak and the culmination of the stresses of the past 2 months

got to me a bit again and I had to take a breather so that I can resume

life... thank God for His mercy and that I could be at church tonight.

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I am seeing such mercy in God's care and in that I rest.