Lent Day 36 ~ Cleo's problems may be more serious

{Picture from Ottawa,

in my beautiful apartment I had for 1 year.}

{First pictures of Cleo, from my C. St. Apartment, 

the first one I had with Cleo in Ottawa.}

{Picture from Mr. Husband and I's first apartment after we were married.}

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I spent a while going through old pictures of my blog,

still have not found the picture of Cleo that I am looking for.

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She's been my little companion, source of solace, laughter and delight for sometime now.

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It seems that the problem Cleo has is in her liver.

The blood work showed all of it is elevated, though not as 

high as it could be, thankfully.

Her pancreas is being tested via the blood work that was already done.

We need more information before we know if we are doing further testing.

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This is really hard for me.

It's an effort to do the things I need to do,

all I want to do is be with Cleo/look at Cleo pictures.

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But it will be OK and we continue to hope for better...

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In other news,

laundry got done, my house is more clean than it was,

things are slowly getting caught up, thank God.

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I am about to begin on a late dinner.

It's warm and sunny today.

Cleo is eating dry cat food as I type,

chew, drop some of the food, pick up some more, chew and drop.

I know that Cleo will not live forever.

I still hope for more years. 

But I know.

And I know that I myself will not live forever.

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This fascinates me. 

I think of it often, how we are walking on this earth,

this slowly whirling ball,

on top of the grass, the flowers, the snow, for a very 

very short time.

We help build or destroy our culture for the next 

people to walk on top,

we embrace or reject God.

How anyone can think that this amazing world is 

not made by SomeOne or SomeThing higher,

when they can only live for 100+ years at most

and most people will never be remembered,

to many of us and yet people think

themselves separate from God, from a Creator.

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I think the only reason it seems unbelievable that we, esp. when

we are still young, can't imagine dying ourselves is that we

have an immortal soul, 

we are made for eternity.

God has written eternity in our hearts.

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Lord have mercy on us and help us.

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I am going to sign off now,

so I can make dinner and welcome 

Mr. Husband home.

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Tomorrow will be colder again, last I heard, but

not as cold.

Spring is here. Summer is coming.

And even more,

Pascha is soon.

Christ, please meet us and bring us closer to you

on this most Holy of Days.