Sunshine Thursday, Cool on Friday

Whew.

Blogger appears to be back and running!

Yay!!!

I imagine that there was a lot of stress for them

as blogger was down for a whole day,

which in social media these days is like a year.

We of little patience.

God save us.

Well,

after that unexpected day of seeing people

trained to help me get a job two years later,

I realized once again that I was caught off guard.

Really I have yet to learn to live as a Christian.

By which I mean that the more rooted a Christian is,

the less likely unexpected correlations and events

will throw them off.

I have much to learn but I am thankful that God's mercies

are new every morning.

Last evening I got news that I do have a second interview

in person sometime next week.

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2 years, my friends, of interviewing.

Will this interview be my last for a while?

Really, even when I did have work,

I was still interviewing every year;

my first jobs were temporary contracts,

a year or less.

I have not counted how many interviews and applications I have done.

Applications certainly 100 or more.

Interviews... 20 at minimum in the last years...

Don't you just love this picture?

I do.

It is of my favourite walk to see my beloved

favourite tree

and actually one of my favourite houses.

I realized I must go back again to do some

actual photographs of the house.

Actually it is just the back of the house.

I just love it.

Ramshackled.

Eccentric.

Large Angel white statue with wings,

metal bird shapes in the back yard;

it reminds me of how I thought things would be for me

one day.

You know,

Family, house, eccentric book filled goodness,

not streamlined or at all corporate or minimalist.

No, just full of life,

a place where all would feel welcome.

Anyway.

That is what that house reminds me of.

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Yesterday a good friend emailed their

assurances of prayer as I go towards another interview.

In the email was included that all my dreams

would be fulfilled.

I feel like I have had my hopes dashed so many times.

That I have lost so much,

so many dreams of what I thought my life would be.

By the end of June I will be half way to being 35.

(i.e. end of December I will be 35).

I never dreamed that the end of my twenties and early thirties

would be filled with uncertainty and continual job searching.

But I also never dreamed that I would be in

the Orthodox church and have a spiritual father.

So I have been given something very great...

*

Anyway.

It is hard not to get my hopes up about this new

interview. Even though I know that work itself

is not easy.

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Meanwhile,

I will continue to seek to learn to pray with hope.

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Christ is Risen.