Waiting

I wrote a

panic and frustration post recently

and took it down.

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I have been told by more than one priest

that we are put in situations

similar ones

again and again

until we learn what is needed.

I really struggle when not knowing my

(job) future.

This has been a huge (the fear of not knowing)

struggle for me for years.

All I can say is I am struggling still with it.

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Ottawa is a really great but strange town.

French language stuff here is

complicated to say the least.

How did I, an American-Canadian, happen to fall in love with

a city whose second language

French

I did not know at all!?!

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And what I know of French I love.

Really.

It can be fun.

But learning it to try to find a job is really stressful.

Sometimes one feels so

alone

in it all

though really it is the devil who lies and says one is alone!

God and His Saints NEVER abandon us!

NEVER.

God promises.

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So.

In the next two/three weeks

I need to...

prepare for my job interview

just getting in a pool of candidates for future work

would be really great.

Government works that way here

they have one position but know

they have more possibilities in the future

so they try to create a pool

so they do not have to run the whole

job competition again.

I need to figure out what French course to take;

do I try for a new course

keep one of my old ones;

I need to start practicing the French government exams.

I really need a class where I can practice listening and speaking.

I am considering looking for part-time work.

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I need to continue to seek to pray

remember God's saving mercies

and cultivate thanksgiving.

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Please know my dear blog community

that you are really appreciated

and I hope you know this.

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God is with us.