Just a quick update - I feel a lot of better - lots of prayers, tears and honest heart searching over a photocopy machine.
I continue to be in a huge life transition. I am still often afraid. I know one of the things I am battling is fear and how to best manage my life.
I feel that I must "make the grade" in this job or I will cease to be a librarian. It would take a long time to explain what I mean, as the library world is quite unfamiliar to most people. But I must learn what I need to learn.
It is going to be hard. Hard on many levels. But I have come to far to give up. There is no one (save God and His ways) financially supporting me. I do not come from a family that has money to lend me - the money is not there. I have school loans, rent to pay, etc.
And I don't have training other than being a librarian. And to be honest I am not a multi-talented person who can easily shift from one profession to another.
So. I am going to have to work harder. And try to cook well too, so I have the energy I need to do the work.
Anyway. That's how it stands. I pray that God will help me and that I can do my best. Thank you for your prayers.
it's a heavy burden, but as you say, you are not alone.
ReplyDeletemy prayers are with you.
have you ever tried greens(spriulina) for energy? I started using it during my practicum year when life and work were particularly arduous and I wasn't eating as well as I should.
You're in my prayers. You are such a sweet person and God will take care of you. Many prayers and keep your chin up. :)
ReplyDeleteLittle Rose, life is a heavy burden. Christ's cross was a heavy burden. Like Him, we pick it up. Like Him, there will be a Simon of Cyrene along the way to help carry the cross.
ReplyDeleteAs Blessed Fr. Sophrony used to say, "Take Courage! Be joyful!"
God be with you.
thank you - V - where do i get these greens? need to find them
ReplyDeleteS - thank you. prayers needed and appreciated. thanks.
P - thanks. i appreciate your words. God is so good to me and to us.
My heart goes out to you. Thank you for your honesty & sensitivity!
ReplyDeleteI strive to pray for you daily. God will not abandon you.
I hear you.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it feels as though the burden cannot get any heavier... last night I lost my wallet in the saveon foods parking lot - DL + credit cards+ debit cards + money + postage stamps + blah blah blah... I was so looking forward to a quiet relaxing evening and it was not to be. But, we do what we gotta do. I am certain you will be just fine. One day at a time.
I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough transition. I pray that God will give you peace.
ReplyDeleteI have no words of wisdom, just love, hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI have no words of wisdom, just love, hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeletethank you E-H for your prayers
ReplyDeleteRW - wow. it is stressful to loose wallet! thanks for your vote of confidence and encouragment
Michelle - thank you for your encouragement and prayers. i can tell that many are praying for me. i indeed need to dwell in God's peace!
Mimi - thanks very much. as they say 'i feel the love' and i really appreciate it.