Thursday, March 31, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
So many who I care for,
in person and in the blog world
are grieving the loss of a recently departed
suffering along side one who has cancer
I have candles lit right now for these.
A friend is unexpectedly in town
and I am sad that I can't spend more time with her;
this is my last week of work;
I have a huge report to finish by Thursday.
I skipped French class tonight
so that I can cook food for the week
Tomorrow on my 'day off'
since I work three days a week for this contact
I will be editing the report I am writing
there just is not time to finish it unless I do this.
Needless to say, I am already tired.
And I don't know when or where I will have work again.
I may get more work where I was but
everything is quite uncertain;
and I live in Ottawa i.e. the nation's capital and our
Parliament was just dissolved which means a new
which could mean a new government
which means government budgets are impacted
it may be harder to get work.
I am seek to continue to put myself in God's hands.
I am already thinking of the next
That said, I am a bit overwhelmed.
But God is with us no matter what.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
I have a lint brush at work,
you can well imagine.
Cute and Sleepy.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Welcome to Spring In Ottawa:
wet snow everywhere...
and to think yesterday I carried my boots
home from church
as things were finally dry and warmer!
Ottawa does this to us often
so I do not let it bother me overly much
as Spring will come.
However, maybe it could hurry up
just a little?! :)
The above picture is from today...
I don't know if she got that particular
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
One of these authors is
Everything must be understood in the light
of God's kingdom and the Church.
Including marriage (not that I have anyone that I am
marrying at this point).
This article by Elder Aimilianos on marriage is from
his book, The Church at Prayer
and I highly recommend reading this
It not only touches on how to decided on who to marry
but what marriage should be
and a bit on raising children.
I am slowly realizing what a significant responsiblity
it is to raise a child
and to raise them to love God and to deny themselves.
Only with God's help can this be done.
Winter is slowly leaving us;
we must run to Christ as spring will come
Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Impressed upon me through my reading,
listening to sermons in church
is the necessity
of seeking humility.
Again and again my spiritual father is counseling us
to seek humility, repentance...
Am reading Fr. Thomas Hopko's Lenten Spring for the first time.
His call for joy reminds me of Fr. Alexander Schmemann's
words in his book Great Lent which
call for us to live in the reality and power of Christ's resurrection.
I remember realizing that the life that Fr. Schmemann described
was not one I was really living.
The life we are supposed to be living is so vividly alive
that Lent is given to us as a gift
so that we can begin to see how we live in ashes
and seek the living water of Christ
and for oil to keep our flickering lights lit.
Please God, may this be.
Saturday, March 05, 2011
Lent is almost upon us.
We need the Saint's protection
and God's mercy.
With taking French twice a week and work
and looking for more work
I find that I don't have as much time to blog
or read others' blogs.
Please know that it is not that I have lost
interest in any of your blogs,
but just that I am trying to keep my head
and maybe my shoulders
Lent will be even more busy,
so I don't know how much I will be blogging
for this reason alone.
I still am struggling with anxiety about my
unknown after this month of March
It is more the being alone with nothing but job searching
and a lack of daily structure
that scare me than money at this point.
The rash that I had in November and that came back in January
may be returning again;
I seem to have a questionable spot again on my face.
I ask your prayers.
I really did not want to go on the strong medicine for
a third time.
If however there is something one of you
my beloved blog friends
esp. need me to know
please email me at roosjeblog @ yahoo . ca
Here's some great resources for lent:
Fr. Thomas Hopko's podcasts here and lots of podcasts
with a lenten focus here
The first thing though is the services;
Life instead of death is what lent is all about.
May Christ have mercy on us.
Forgive me for anything I may have written that
in anyway hurt or wounded.
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
she is still in the hospital.
I tried calling her but was not able to get through.
Mara's father was able to talk to her today
and it sounds like she is struggling.
Please, I ask your prayers for her.
She is a very beautiful Christian woman
who has prayed for me so much
over the ten plus years
I've been privileged to know her.
Borscht made. Fried onions and mushrooms in butter. Yum.
I am reading an older edition of
Blessed John the Wonderworker
(my copy I loaned to a friend)
so I am reading my church library's copy.
I love reading about St. John of Shanghai and San Fransisco.
I find that reading stories about the Saints helps
one feel closer to them.
Also going to monasteries helps with this;
I remember when I first read Saint stories,
I was still pretty new to Orthodoxy and I found them
overwhelming, esp. the martyred Saints.
These things take a while to get used to but now
I would not trade the stories for anything!
Part of what I did this year for Lent is to
make two new icons.
I will have to do close ups of them sometime,
However, I did get two bloggable pictures so far.
One icon is of Christ on the Cross,
a print I got at the Greek monastery this past summer.
The other is of St. Ephraim the Syrian,
whose Lenten prayer we pray daily
I thought St. Ephraim would be a good choice to help me
as we journey through Lent...
I also took out my smaller prints
from the same monastery
of Christ the Bridegroom
and Christ Resurrected
as it is these two events we are about to fully prepare for.
I find this to be very comforting,
having so many reminders of God's kingdom.
I kept my what I call my 'Christmas Icon'
up as well.
I got this icon just after new calendar Christmas
at Holy Dormition monastery
and find it,
with all the Angels,
to be very Christmas-like.
Christ's Holy Face is an icon that took me a while to get used to
but now my love for it is growing...
Have you read St. Ephraim's Spiritual Psalter?
Ancient Faith Radio has often
read prayers for this book,
compiled by St. Theophan.
It is lovely and I was reading from it a few weeks ago and realized
how much St. Ephraim can help us
move towards repentance
and realized that it was time to make this icon
(from an old church calendar that I have had since 2005).
Cleo loved having me home today.
I love Tuesdays;
I am working but yet have Tuesdays free;
my church has noon prayer and I go there;
it was sunny;
I found the material for my icons,
the anticipation of lent is in the air.
I am behind on my cover letter goal.
I think I need a real push to get this done.
Am struggling with this one.
God is with us.